Cannot get up from bed nor do anything
I used to be depressed a few years ago, very close to offing myself. I like to think that I entirely recovered from this, I would even go on to say I was pretty happy about my life, but recently things have been awful. I don't know If I should name every single thing going wrong, but I basically wake up in the morning, head full of responsibilities, mixed feelings about everything. The night prior I tell myself "This time It is going to be different", I make a to do list for the next day and boom, I do absolutely nothing. It takes me hours to get up from bed, then when I do, I just sit on the couch in the living room. I know I have a lot of things to do and It will only get worse the longer I continue to do nothing and yet I find It so hard to change. What is wrong with me? I always get some burst of motivation randomly, but It goes away as fast as It comes