I really need help
It has been one month since I left him because he lied to me for years about his cheating in the beginning of the relationship. He tortured me after I ended it, he showed up to my house uninvited tried to coerce me into sleeping with him and asked me to marry him. I told him the experience made me feel violated and unsafe and he said how dare I accuse him of that and mocked me making a joke about women taking back consent online. Now I feel like is trying to torture me in a different way only two weeks later. He has a very public platform on social media that I really want to stop looking at because it really hurts but yesterday, he posted a whole story about a new girl he met at a bar and how badly he wanted to sleep with her and posted the story of him meeting her even comparing how they both just got out of a long-time relationship. I just feel like he is trying to torture me because I really did love him, after everything he has done, I will never speak to him again, but I can't stand the psychological torture, and I don't know how to stop checking his social media. He seems to be drinking a lot, taking other drugs and travelling impulsively and I don't even recognize this person. How do you cope with feeling so easily replaceable? The last time we broke up he wrote me letters everyday but now I'm nothing but a past relationship he can connect with new girls over.