Bf wants me to go to a 2-day wedding, he’s a groomsman so the first day is reception, the second is the wedding, and the third is gonna be traveling home. He’s asked me to ask my mom to watch the apartment while we’re gone. But there’s so many other things happening (Mother’s Day, friends birthday and he’s struggling, I work every day the next few weeks except for two days of the wedding and on Saturday we have to leave early so I can work again) giving me no time to prioritize anything else. I couldn’t even get time off to see my mom on Mother’s Day, I was lucky to get scheduled like this to go to the wedding.
I don’t really know the people getting married, it’s a place full of his friends, and I know how I usually come off to others. I don’t have the kinda social anxiety that makes people chat out of fear, I have the kind that makes me dissociate and freeze and space out and shake and develop migraines and it’s awkward and I hate it and I know he’s gonna be talking and hanging out with his friends the whole time and because he’s a groomsman I will be sitting with his friends during the actual wedding. I’m just so tired thinking about it already. I mentioned maybe not going and he said he’d be really upset if I didn’t.
I don’t even have anything formal to wear really nor do I have much time to go anywhere. I usually am not home 10-11 hours a day due to commuting and working and on my down time I am just so exhausted and in pain. Idk man. I know how this sounds I know I sound like a loser AHHHH social anxiety sucks and I will probably go anyways just to make him happy. I just feel so bad about how bad I feel LOL