u/Alarming-Office9781

Is anyone in Houston actually hiring I need a job badly. I’ve been struggling and I am willing to do anything serious inquiring only please.

I don’t really know where else to ask this, but I could really use some advice.
I used to feel very connected to my spirituality and my intuition. Back then, I felt like I could trust myself. Now I feel completely disconnected, and everything I thought I knew just doesn’t make sense to me anymore. I can’t tell what’s my intuition and what’s just anxiety or OCD, and it’s honestly exhausting.
I’ve also slowly started losing faith in manifestation. I have OCD, so it’s hard not to get caught in cycles of overthinking and feeling like I don’t deserve good things. It feels like every time I put my heart into something, it still doesn’t work out. After enough disappointments, it’s become really hard to stay hopeful.
The biggest thing I’m struggling with right now is finding a job. I’ve applied to so many places and have been rejected over and over again. I’ve prayed, tried to manifest, stayed positive, and kept telling myself something would work out, but nothing has. I’m at a point where I’m emotionally and financially drained.
I don’t want luxury or anything unrealistic. I just want to be able to pay my bills, take care of myself, and finally have some stability. Right now, I feel like I’m losing hope, and I don’t know what to believe anymore.
Has anyone else gone through something like this? How did you reconnect with yourself or your spirituality after feeling so lost? And if you’ve struggled with OCD or anxiety, how do you tell the difference between your intuition and your fears?
I’d really appreciate any advice or even knowing I’m not alone.