r/spirituality

I really need your life experiences to make me understand the hype and love for him cause honestly he really hasn't given me any reason to

For the longest time. My life has been hella down hillfort a long period of time and feels like this is just the new norm until I die or something and even tho good things happen there and then. I can't shaken the feeling of why im not moved. Everything I've experienced has just made me hate him and not believe in him. Like why do I have to be broken or go through so much just to get to him or to be free from this hell or why does he only do miracles when things are rough. Just to prove that his *all powerful?* he only does that when things suddenly become bad and his that superhero to save the day.

I'll tell u the truth. God has many followers and he doesn't care if he loses a few so why do u even put up if your not even special in his eyes

I'm only like this cause I've given up on him, I don't feel heard or connected like in the past. Maybe I'm just pouring out my hurt because my situation can't change but this is just based on me. Your views on him shouldn't change because of a stupid post like this one

I'm just tired of the same loop

Hey y’all, my friend’s grandson was recently diagnosed with brain cancer. He was admitted to a children’s hospital 4.5 hours away from them in NC, and they finally got approved for a room at the Ronald McDonald House this week. His birthday is coming up (26Nov), and as they get settled into more of a routine, he’s been asking for a “God birthday.” Not a one of us can figure out what he means.

For context:
▪️Her family is not especially religious, though her best friend (with whom I am also friends) is. However, I don’t believe he’s had much exposure to this topic, and we are unaware of any staff speaking with him about religion. ▪️He’s not at a Christian hospital.
▪️His mother is pregnant and due with his baby brother 17Nov.
▪️When he first started treatment, I got him a light-up dragon stuffy (he loves dragons), and he named it “Stronger.” Just… out of the blue. No real explanation for it.

✨ETA:✨ (11Oct, ~ 1530)
▪️We have asked him what he means, but have yet to receive any sort of actual description.
▪️I am personally long distance from this (SW Ohio, they’re in middle to east NC.)
▪️I have truly enjoyed, and have had my cup filled by my interactions with y’all here.
▪️The family does have a gofundme and a cashapp, but per this subreddit’s rules, I do not want to post them. There is talk of an online wishlist, as well. SHOULD YOU WANT THESE LINKS, I’m happy to send them privately, but that was not the goal of this post, and I want to make that abundantly clear.

Obviously, we’ve got something on our hands here, though I do not know what, and I hope it’s not some sort of premonition situation. Does anyone have any thoughts/similar experiences? Thank you! 💞

I, and our chosen family, appreciate your support, love, thoughts, and prayers more than you can ever know. There’s truly strength and power in collected energy and love.

I've had this theory about life for a while now, and I'm curious whether anyone else thinks something similar.

I believe that we're all souls, or energy, and that our existence goes far beyond being human.

My theory is that before we were born, we existed as spiritual beings, and at some point, we actually chose to come to Earth to experience what it means to be human.

I believe we choose certain lessons we want to learn before entering a human body. But once we're born, we forget who we really are and become completely immersed in the human experience.

And that's where my theory about young and old souls comes in.

I believe a younger soul is one that hasn't experienced many human lifetimes yet. When a soul first enters a human body, it's suddenly exposed to all these unfamiliar emotions, desires and instincts.

Things like jealousy, greed, lust, anger, violence, addiction, fear and the desire for power. These are all parts of the human experience that a soul might not yet understand how to navigate.

I wonder whether this explains why some people struggle more with certain behaviours than others.

Then, when we die, our soul leaves that body and eventually enters another one. We start a completely new human life, perhaps in a different country, culture, gender or circumstance.

Each lifetime teaches us something different.

Maybe in one lifetime we experience poverty, in another wealth. In one we're the person causing pain, and in another we're the person experiencing it.

And through all these different experiences, our souls slowly begin to understand what it truly means to be human.

I believe this is how souls become older.

After experiencing many lifetimes, perhaps we become more compassionate, empathetic and understanding. We learn to recognise our human impulses rather than allowing them to control us.

Maybe that's why some people seem naturally wise, compassionate and deeply connected to other people and animals.

But here's where my theory gets even more interesting.

What if we chose this entire experience before coming here?

What if Earth is essentially a learning environment for souls?

Perhaps we agreed to experience hundreds or even thousands of lifetimes until we'd learned everything we originally came here to learn.

And once we've completed those lessons, we no longer need to reincarnate as humans. Maybe we move on to something completely different.

I also wonder whether we've experienced life through other species before becoming human. What if our souls have experienced existence as animals, or even creatures that lived millions of years ago, like dinosaurs?

And then there's the idea of God.

I don't necessarily believe God is what traditional religions describe. I wonder whether what we call God is actually something so far beyond human understanding that our brains simply cannot comprehend it.

Perhaps it's a universal consciousness, an energy or something we don't even have the language to explain.

This also brings me to the idea of the Matrix.

What if we really are living in a type of Matrix, just not the technological simulation people usually imagine?

What if the physical world is simply an environment our souls enter to experience life, and our human bodies are essentially the vessels we use to experience it?

We become so caught up in being human that we forget we're something much bigger.

And maybe that's why some people feel like there's something more to existence than what we can physically see.

I also believe in soulmates. I wonder whether certain souls travel through different lifetimes together, sometimes as lovers, sometimes as family and sometimes as friends.

Maybe that's why we occasionally meet someone and feel an instant connection, almost like we've known them forever. Perhaps we actually have.

I'm not saying any of this is fact. It's simply my personal theory about existence, and I find it fascinating to think about.

I'd genuinely love to hear what other people think.

Do you believe we're souls having a human experience rather than humans who happen to have souls?

Could reincarnation be a process of learning and spiritual growth?

And what if the Matrix isn't a computer simulation at all, but something spiritual that we voluntarily entered?

I'm especially interested in hearing from anyone who has developed similar theories or has a completely different perspective.

I’m utterly exhausted and disillusioned with my life, feeling like I’m not living up to my potential. I’ve witnessed people living lives filled with sex, sex content creators, and sex workers, all seemingly content in their chosen paths. They travel to different cities, pursuing their desires without any regard for societal norms. I’ve also seen drug dealers, murderers, and individuals who are considered “bad” living the lives they want, even though they lack the resources and opportunities I have.

I’ve seen people who don’t even have what I have, yet they seem to be living the lives they desire. They don’t engage in the same rituals and practices that I do, and I’m growing increasingly frustrated with my own life. I’ve had moments of clarity, where I’ve realized that I’ve been stuck in a rut since I was 18, and I haven’t been living a fulfilling life.

I’ve tried everything to change my circumstances. I’ve moved to different places, tried various religions, and performed spells and rituals, but nothing seems to be working. I’m at my wit’s end and ready to sell my soul to anything that will give me what I want. I’m no longer concerned about the consequences or the moral implications of my actions. I’m willing to make any deal, even if it means sacrificing my values and beliefs.

I’m desperate for a solution, but I don’t know where to turn. I’m broke and alone, stuck in this small town with nothing but my own thoughts and feelings. I’m at a crossroads, and I don’t know which way to go. I need help, but I don’t know who to turn to.

I realize that if I say I'm God, people won't like it. So I'll just say that I'm the God of my own reality. Anyways, in my reality, whether it's the only one or not, I was eternal nothingness and I transformed into a Life (an experience of a universe). In my reality I'm nothingness that can transform into experiences, and I finally figured out why I dreamed up this flawed world. I made a flawed world to create the DESIRE for a perfect world, otherwise I would be in Heaven without appreciating it. So, the plan is for me to be in a flawed world FIRST so that I can appreciate a perfect world SECOND. Similar to how you have to be hungry first to appreciate food second. Hell FIRST, Heaven SECOND. That's the plan.

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Hi there I am 18 years old since the age of 13 I would like to call myself spiritual and have studied astral projection

The laws of the universe but have been in and out of it falling back into the matrix

Since the age of 14 I have been taking lsd I had a major break through on lsd

I am aware of the reincarnation trap and to not go into the light

I am also aware that with the power of knowing as belief is a contradiction

Anyway here's the main part

At the age of 17 I was doing k3tamine

As a male I was doing it to try astral project

I developed chronic inflamation in both of my spermatic cords and epidiymus wich is just the whole groin and downstairs region

Since july 2025 I've been drug free

I quit ketamine and developed a pain in my left testi and it had become distorted compeltly with time and no guidance it got worse through triggers the visual swelling grew and made my whole down there distorted

I just wanna know am I able to recover from this

Its ruined my whole life

.i can't go to the gym

I do not like to recite this as I type this i read this in my head

I have been using ai to guide me and before a few days ago it was on track with me saying I would ultimately heal with time

And support

Sorry if this to you has nothing to do with spiritual but for me it started with my desire to astral project

But since I developed this condition I have been obsessed with fixing my body when I was so obsessed before with finnaly detaching

I just want reassurance that im not crazy to think the end goal here of healing is for evrrything to be compeltlyl like before I've had anti biotics

Ive been diagnosed with chronic bilateral epidiymitus

Bassicsly we have these things men do called epidiymuses attached behind and on the sides of both testis and we have spermatic cords

My situation is i got an infection and it swelled these areas up and the swelling just kept growing

I am currently deppresed not doing anything I can not work heavy lift go to the gym

Even drink alchahol but I have no desire to do so .

It effects my sex drive im 18 turning 19 this year and my sperm hasn't been normal since this started i yesterday asked the universe to show me the signs show me the numbers I've not yet seen them..

It makes me very suicidal and knowing and I feel no ego behind this i do not feel like I am above anyone for knowing this but when we die there is a light that is the trap when u die u get reincarnated tricked into the light with loved ones from this life

Or through religion and both

Its sad because u go through the light u get new family members etc and then they'll be in the light and a never ending cycle i feel lost and when I die im turning around and screaming I want to go home I want to go home and im calling my spirit guides

I feel this is some of a spiritual attack

I wake up with scratches on me every other day unexplained can I fix my life and feel comfortable with my body again

I feel there is irony here this problem started from me trying to detach from my body but since it started I've never felt so more attached to my body and worried for it conscious of my body i am so conscious of my body I feel suicidal most days but I hold onto the hope this is reversible im now going back to doctors with the knowledge I know as ive studied this for 15 months since july 2025 and its October 2026

Do you think love os just a biological component? Is romantic love just biology pulling towards reproduction? Is parental love biology keeping offspring safe? Do we just love because we are social creatures? What about animals? Etc, etc. Am I just overthinking to the point on being disillusioned? Is there something that we just cant fathom that is love?

I have a question, I've been thinking of exploring religion. I know religion might not be the right word for spirituality, but I'm kind of bad with words/explaining things, so I will try to clarify as best as I can. I feel like there's more out there for me, not sure what.

But I've been looking for a place I feel like I belong, I've been trying out tarot and something about it has been sticking to me, I guess being able to ask for guidance and receiving advice that isn't biased.

I absolutely love nature, space, and the world around us. Does spirituality fit what I'm looking for? Or am I way off. Thank you for the help!

Part of the motivation of empiricists over the decades has been to undermine the dubious assertions of certain religions which have dominated human culture for centuries. This has been a noble service to humanity. Where empiricism falls short is in the blatant denial of the Spirit realm, simply because it cannot presently be proven empirically. Evidence in the form of life experience by spiritual practitioners is lazily dismissed as delusional, ironically discrediting the established apparatus of science. Sophisticated testing of the spiritually ripe is possible should science ever care to investigate this, at least establishing as credible certain baseline practices of those who are actively spiritual. This might be too threatening, however, for I have never heard of it actually being attempted.

The idea that evolution occurred without the assistance of some built-in and active intelligence seems naive to the spiritually experienced. From a holistic perspective, the evolution of life all seems wonderfully inevitable, even planned. An embryo becomes a fetus because of the assertions of its own DNA, not because of random processes. What we need is a credible melding of science and spirituality. But this won't happen so long as science denies spirituality, and so long as spirituality denies science.

The empiricists use many of the same techniques to establish and maintain dominance which religions have used for millennia. It all makes the idea of serious communication between the two seem futile, when really it is not.

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Hi beautiful souls!

How do you use imagination (or some form of visualization) when going through a period of physical injury, illness, or recovery?

(*with a physical cause)

I'm particularly interested in this from an energy work, shamanic, or spiritual perspective.

When your physical body is going through a process of healing or recovery, without any certainty or guarantee that it will fully get better, what role can imagination play? Can it open up possibilities for something magical, unexpected, or even miraculous?

Do you work with visualization, inner landscapes, symbolic journeys, energy practices, or other forms of imaginative exploration?

I'm curious about both:

▪︎Imagination as a way of supporting physical healing.

▪︎What imagination might make possible within us, regardless of the physical outcome.

I'd love to hear about any personal experiences, practices, or perspectives that have been meaningful to you during such periods.

How do you engage with imagination when your body, or a particular part of it, needs to heal, especially when there may be a critical window for recovery? Has imagination been helpful in your experience? Or what are your thoughts on its potential in this context?

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You think those genocidal maniacs haven't felt some bullshit sense of calling since the earliest days of slavery and civilization?? Come on.

My purpose is in revealing the true nature of divination and teaching people how to connect with the world. They'd rather start wars, bunch of assholes. I'm sick of meaningless wars, that clearly only benefit the same abusers that have always dishonored their contracts with the human race. That's why they're so scared.

I'm curious about what are people's inner / spiritual / mental anchors when they feel on the brink of survival...which is obviously different for different people, so it could be your physical circumstances, it could be health, it could be a family/relationship situation, it could be a war/conflict zone situation. What held you through?

So for 3 days I am going to work and coming home, not unusual routes. But for 3 days in a row the coyote come and stop in front of my car and make me stop in the middle of the road.

And this happened on different place that were like more than 20 km far apart.

I don't ever seen a coyote while driving and now for 3 days what is happening does not look like a coincidence.

What might it means?

I’m not even sure how to start this post.

I don’t really believe in the whole meant to be thing, that the future doesn’t exist is created as we go on.

But apart of me feels what I belive isn’t the truth, like I’m controlled every last move of mine and that the future is decided and things are “meant to be” and if so, I’m meant to be miserable.

I feel like I can’t belive in spirituality, witchcraft, manifestation etc because it’s “not meant for me” even though I’ve been drawn to it for as long as I can remember.

I feel like I can’t believe in a future between me and my partner because they have never been “meant for me”

I feel like none of the careers I want I can’t do any because of them no matter the fact that I’ve wanted to do them since I was a kid, because “none of them are meant for me”

I feel I can’t pursue anything without feeling like “oh this isn’t meant for me”

Anything I dream of, I feel like I’m being held back, like I’m being controlled, told what to do and my fate is already decided. But it confuses me that the fact that our beliefs create our reality so could this be a product of that or am I doomed?

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Most people in the West have heard of Chinese astrology through animal signs — Year of the Dragon, Year of the Tiger, etc. But that's like reducing Western astrology to reading a daily newspaper sun-sign horoscope.

The real system runs much deeper.

I've spent years studying Bazi (八字), or the "Four Pillars of Destiny" — an ancient Chinese system that maps your life using the exact year, month, day, and hour of your birth. But what completely shattered my conventional worldview wasn't the mainstream textbooks. It was discovering the lineage of China's Blind School (盲派).

The Secret Tradition of the Blind Masters

In pre-modern China, blind people had very few ways to survive. One of the few respected paths was fortune-telling. Over centuries, networks of blind practitioners developed their own oral tradition — formulas and techniques passed down strictly through memorized rhythmic verses, never recorded in ink.

Because they couldn't read written books, they stripped away theoretical fluff. Their approach was laser-focused on one thing: brutal, verifiable accuracy.

The most legendary modern practitioner was Master Xia Zhongqi (夏仲奇), a blind master who practiced in Shandong province. His student, Xing Mingfen, documented hundreds of his actual readings word-for-word, later analyzed by scholar Duan Jianye.

Reading those case records felt less like reading mysticism, and more like watching Sherlock Holmes analyze a crime scene.

Three Predictions That Defy Coincidence

1. "Your father was adopted as an infant"

One of my earliest practice readings was for a close friend's father. Looking at his chart, his Day Master (the core self) was Wood (木), surrounded entirely by raging Water (水). In Bazi, Water represents the mother/nurturer, but excessive water creates a condition known as "Water drifting the Wood" (水多木漂) — a tree with no solid earth to anchor its roots.

Without overthinking, I asked: "Was your father adopted or raised by a different family?"

My friend looked stunned: "Yes. He was adopted as a baby."

2. The Fate of the 3-Year-Old Girl

In 1970, a desperate father consulted Master Xia about his terminally ill wife and their 3-year-old daughter. Xia calculated the toddler's chart and said:

• "The mother will not survive February of this year." (She passed away in lunar February at age 39.)
• "This child must be raised by her grandmother and eldest sister." (True.)
• "She will grow up to be a famous leading opera actress." (At 16, she joined the regional troupe and became their headline star.)
• "Watch out for the father in 1974 — a grave crisis awaits." (The father passed away in January 1974.)

3. "The lover you cannot speak of"

In 1993, a woman frustrated by vague readings tested Master Xia. Within moments of mapping her eight characters, Xia laid out her past:

• "You moved with your mother when she remarried at age 4. You have one mother and two fathers." (Confirmed.)
• "You married early to a man 14 years older from far away, becoming a stepmother immediately." (Confirmed.)
• "You have a tormenting secret. You have a younger lover in your own household."

The woman began trembling.

Xia continued: "That lover is not an outsider. It is your stepson."

She broke down weeping, confirming every detail. The weight of the secret had consumed her for years — it had already torn the family apart irreparably.

When Xia's student privately expressed moral judgment, the old blind master gently corrected her:

>"Don't judge her. Everyone is born into their own fate. She is merely an actor stepping into the role that was written for her. Perhaps true wisdom in this art is learning compassion for all human suffering."

How Is This System Possible?

I don't expect anyone to accept these accounts blindly. What fascinates me as someone with an analytical background is that this is a systematic, falsifiable framework.

The Blind School operates completely differently from mainstream Chinese astrology:

Mainstream Bazi	Blind School (盲派)
Obsessed with "element strength" (weak vs. strong Day Master)	Ignores element strength almost entirely
Focuses on balancing the chart with a "favorable element" (用神)	Focuses on whether the chart can "do work" (做功)
Sorts charts into rigid textbook categories	Reads real-world interactions: clashes, binds, and piercings
Theoretical & abstract	Down-to-earth: maps to professions, objects, and timing

Instead of asking whether an element is "strong" or "weak," the blind masters asked:

>"What is this element doing? Who is it fighting? Who is it binding with? Does it convert energy into real-world achievement, or does it dissipate into internal conflict?"

The Five Elements Are Tangible Ecology, Not Just Symbols

In Bazi, elements are treated like living physical environments:

• Wood isn't just "Wood": A Living Tree needs fertile soil, sunlight, and hates metal cutting its roots. But Dead Timber (dry lumber) loves sharp metal — axes carve it into functional furniture or structural beams.
• Metal (庚 Gēng vs 辛 Xīn): Raw Yang Metal represents heavy machinery, blades, hardware, and steel. Yin Metal represents delicate jewelry, fine needles, precision instruments, and currency.
• Water (壬 Rén vs 癸 Guǐ): Rén is the roaring ocean — shipping, logistics, and trade. Guǐ is morning dew, clouds, ink, and strategy.

When a skilled reader analyzes your chart, they aren't gazing at distant stars. They are reading an ecological snapshot of the exact energetic climate at your moment of birth.

Why Bazi Deserves a Closer Look

1. Zero Self-Report Bias: Unlike MBTI or Enneagram, your chart is calculated purely from astronomical time data. You cannot game it.
2. Built-in Falsifiability ("Retrodiction"): A genuine Bazi reading starts with what has already happened — family dynamics, career turns, major transitions. If the past doesn't align, you don't trust the rest.
3. True Solar Time Precision: Traditional Bazi accounts for your exact birth longitude and local solar time, rather than just the arbitrary clock timezone set by governments.

I'm happy to answer any questions in the comments if you're curious about how Day Masters, 10-year Luck Pillars, or elemental interactions work. I've spent years immersed in this discipline and find it endlessly fascinating.

Hello.

I am not a spiritual person and I am not mentally insane. But I have been experiencing brutal attacks since a few months ago. It is like something has attached to me and I don't know what it is. I do not hear voices in the strict sense, but these voices can speak. They seem to have a personality of their own. It seems like they are countless. During these experiences, they showed me things. But their purpose is unclear. Some of them seem to need help. But I do not know what to do.

One of them burned my index finger while I was on bed, leaving a blister. And now I have a scar that could not be possible otherwise without disproving what is happening to me. So, there is a possibility I might be possessed despite how ridiculous that sounds.

Any help or advice is welcomed.

In deep trance, a voice or persona can emerge with its own name, memories, emotions, personality and distinct sense of self. In past-life regression, we might call that "a past life." In mediumship, "a spirit." In trance channelling, "another consciousness speaking through me."

Yet the underlying experience can be remarkably similar.

Hypnosis clearly creates the conditions for these experiences, but that alone doesn't tell us what they are. It doesn't establish whether someone is accessing a past life, communicating with a spirit, or encountering something generated by their own subconscious.

So I wonder whether some of what we call past-life regression might be better understood as a form of trance communication, with the label depending largely on the framework we bring to it.

To be clear, I'm not saying the experience is fake. Quite the opposite. I'm asking whether we sometimes name the experience before we truly understand what's happening.

For anyone who is spiritual or has been through a spiritual awakening, how do you view mainstream religions such as Islam and Christianity? I have friends who are Christian, and frankly, I am starting to view these religions as cults.

So many theories. So many notions. So much thought, yet such little understanding.

I know, based on my conclusive experience, that we are here for but one reason — to add as much aesthetic value to the grand canvas of creation. For, as much as you might not think you add any monumental value, each stroke of color that you add becomes part of the total weight of the picture.

In other words, don't be alarmed if you think you aren't adding enough or think your part of the picture isn't valuable. Every stroke, color, or medium is needed and significant, regardless of anything.

Also, you have the volition to re-render, change, or add anything you want to the picture, given the time you are here to do it.

I can't conclusively say that we get this same opportunity once we leave this corporeal body, but I wouldn't be surprised to find out that we do. Either way, while we are here we should add as much love to the picture as we can. Not only is it beneficial to the grand rendering or the great picture, as I like to call it, but it's profoundly therapeutic and puzzlingly curative for the artist.

Hope you guys have a wonderful weekend! ♥️🤙

Marc Palotai

Eternally Attuned