u/Proud-Background-476

I wouldn't say im a nihilist (kinda) but I have been thinking about death and the point of life a lot for the past 2 months. Its crazy we're just on a planet in an endless void of space. Its crazy how anything works really. I'll be driving and just stop and look around and freak out realizing im a flesh of meat that could die at any moment and how un important my life really is? Ive also thought about how im just gonna grow old and die, why not get it over with while im young you know? Get it out the way now especially if everything ends eventually? Im 16f by the way. Back to the point, I do kinda fear death but I do remind myself its probably like sleeping with no dream so yea, which i dont mind? I wanted to see others opinions on this? Like if anyone is scared of death in general? And if your not why? And if you are why?

Im not totally convinced us humans have an afterlife and that scares me. Its crazy how everyone's gonna die you know? And I've been reading stuff about this topic and its only people's beliefs on human afterlife, but what are people's thoughts on bugs and animals? Ive started feeling so guilty for killing ants and whatever other bugs, they're just trying to live and survive and I just kill them forever? Insane. I also have been feeling super guilty about eating meat, like some poor cow died just for my fatass to enjoy a burger. Another thing is i am 16f and have grown up with my cat who is also 16, he is old but he is perfectly healthy and runs around and is super healthy, but i do fear that ill never see him again and that scares me. Ive grown up with him and love him so much, i honeslty cant live without him. He sleeps with me everynight, i talk to him about literally everything. I just wanna hear people's takes on this because im curious. If bugs have an afterlife, they better be in a different one far away from me.