is getting triggered making me a narcissist?
i’ve been in recovery/healing/99%healed for about four years now and i couldn’t be more proud. however, my friend we will call X has recently gone through an unfortunate process with harm and attempts to end their life, and all i can think about whenever they talk about it is exactly how harming myself felt. all i can think about is think back onto every attempt and how good it felt in the moment before i break down in to tears. id tell this to my boyfriend whom i love no matter what, but i dont want all we talk about is to be me and my problems. i love him too much to make him worry or get sick of this. he’s my everything and so is my friend. i hate making someone else’s story about me or how i feel. but my god all i can do is almost miss my past a little. what can i do about these feelings? i’m getting too curious about myself and my past habits. how do i not become a narcissist?
ps ab bf: he’s always been understanding and has always told me that i’m never too much and actually encourages me to talk more about my past to cope but i know everyone has a limit even if he dosent say something.