Selective mutism towards my mother only.
How do I get better?
Just found this term a few minutes ago, but I think I’ve had selective mutism since I was in year 7, now I’m at year 11. I can’t speak to my mother only except if I whispered, or texted her, whenever she is near I immediately speak less and get super anxious in her hearing me speak normally, I guess I also fear when my mother says something like “you’re speaking now!” whenever I accidentally slip up, this has caused some crazy fear in me. I don’t know why I still can’t talk to her. People look at me in public when I’m whispering to my mother and I get even more anxious then and this has been seriously been affecting my mental health. I also fear other authority maybe because they remind me of my mother but I’ve just been in this constant fear that I genuinely want to get out of.