I think my boyfriend raped me
I’m 27 (F) my bf is 34 and we’re set to get married in Aug. His character is genuinely so questionable. Like he’s the type to switch off his phone for days if his mom is asking him for money. He has done some really foul things in the past that i have forgiven but last night was extreme. last night i pretended like i was really really drunk just to see how he would act. We started making out and having sex and i pretended like i had passed out. He saw i was passed out, called out my name a few time and shook me and i acted like dead weight. Suprisingly he continued until he came. When i was ‘sobered up’ we went out and he was extra nice, kept asking if i wanted anything, we had talked about getting me a car a while back and now he just gave me a budget and asked me to pick a car, he kept telling me how much he loves me and he even said ‘thank you so much for loving me’ but i just feel so disgusted. I dont know what to do..