Am I a poser? Long story.
Not sure if this is the right subreddit.
M32
As a kid I liked Slipknot, Disturbed, Metallica, and Linkin Park. I never dove deeper than this and I mainly listened to gangster rap and some pop.
Maybe overall I had a good childhood so that’s why I listened to happy music and music about getting rich and partying.
I never dressed as a scene kid, emo or goth. It took until high school for my friend to show me bands like ADTR, We came as Roman’s etc. from her I found other bands like Yellow card, four years strong, As blood runs black, bullet for my valentine, Silverstein, august burns red, kills switch engaged. etc. but still listened to a lot of rap and pop.
Then I went to audio school and met a new best friend who helped me get into more metal music. Bring me the horizon, motionless in white. Marilyn Manson, the amity affliction etc. he was also the one who took me to my 1st metal and Slipknot show in 2021. I started to slowly wear black and band merch more. Since Slipknot I only been to one hip hop concert and all my other concerts have been metal. I can’t get enough of it live and listening to bands. I went to 6 metal concerts last year and Silverstein.
This year I’ve been to 4 so far with one hardcore show and got two more metal ones lined up with seven hills festival as well. Since going to so many metal concerts I feel like this is who I am and I am proud to show it off. I wish I got fully into it when I was younger. Wearing band merch makes me feel proud that I’m representing a band I saw live and it’s a good conversation started since I suck at small talk.
I did have depression in high school but it’s been the ultimate worst the past few years. Along with anxiety. I have my ups and downs. But having it in high school you would think I would have been dresses emo or scene. Maybe it’s because I just wasn’t fully aware of being cultured or didn’t have that type of friends. I think the closest I got was skater look since I was always into skating even though I sucked at tricks lol.
I also have slowly been getting tattoos, grew my hair a bit, and had a nose piercing last year that I knocked out in my sleep. Thinking of getting one again.