When do I get to feel happy again?
It's been a year since my short 2 week psychosis ended. Why is this stupid anhedonia still here? Sure, my motivation came back to do things. I'm "doing normal things" as other people keep trying to remind me - working, going to the gym, seeing friends, gaming, reading. But why can I still not feel happy about any of it? Why can I still not feel music, or joy, or pleasure about anything? Just how much longer does my stupid brain need before it can finally let me feel happy again? Is it 3 months? 6 months? Another whole year? Why does it take so long? I haven't felt happiness or joy for a whole entire year. I can't stand the idea that I might spend yet another year not being able to feel happy. My life feels like it's going to waste, and just because I'm "doing normal things", what's the point if I cannot feel normal or happy about any of it? Honestly fuck anhedonia and fuck psychosis.