I’ve identified as bisexual for years
I’ve identified as bisexual for years and never really questioned it. I’ve always been attracted to women emotionally and physically to some degree, but I’ve only seriously been with men. I honestly thought eventually I’d meet a woman and everything would finally click the same way it does with guys.
A few nights ago that finally happened. One of my close friends and I ended up hooking up after years of tension and flirting. I went into it thinking this was gonna confirm everything I always believed about myself.
But afterward I just felt confused.
I liked kissing her, being close to her, all of that. But once things got more sexual, something felt off for me mentally. I kept realizing I wasn’t feeling the same level of attraction or satisfaction I usually feel with men, and it honestly freaked me out because I wasn’t expecting that at all.
Now I feel like I’m questioning everything in the opposite direction. I still think women are beautiful, I still get emotionally attached to women sometimes, but sexually I don’t know if I’m actually fulfilled in that way. And realizing that has been weirdly upsetting because being bi has been part of my identity for so long.
I almost feel guilty even typing this because I don’t want it to sound offensive or dismissive toward women at all. The experience itself wasn’t bad. It just made me realize I might not be who I thought I was, and I genuinely don’t know what to do with that feeling.
Has anyone else had an experience that completely changed how they viewed their sexuality?