Was this cocsa or am I overreacting
I cannot remember properly when it started or when it ended but I do know I was 2 years older than the guy who did it. I know he wouldve been around 8-10 when it stopped. My apologies if I do a bad job at explaining this I have never really posted on reddit before and my only exposure to how to format on reddit is those AITA videos.
The earliest memory I have is of when me and him were hanging out over at my house, I think I was about 7-8 or 9 therefore making him 5-7 and It was summer so it was boiling and I was just in my vest and panties and he was in just his underwear. We both ran around for a while and then at one point he stared at me and pulled down his pants. I didnt want to look at this and so I looked away. From memory he tried to get me to show him my privates as well but I cant tell if this happened in this incident or if im mixing the next one with this one
Second incident I remember wasnt too long ago from the first where we were in my room and I have no memory of what led up to it but I remember sitting down against my door and him starting to ask me to show him my privates again because he showed me his. I told him no and im guessing I had moved or im recalling this wrong but he had ended up blocking the door and telling me I cant leave until I pull down my pants and panties and show him. I had panicked and started crying and screaming since he I THINK tried to pull my pants down. For further context because this is relevant in the next instances he is more strong than me and has always been becaude he was a rather chubby guy who had martial arts training while I had always been underweight and refused to do any sports or training. My mum and his mum ended up finding up and I remember his mum spanking him and telling him that we dont do that to girls but thats it.
3rd instance which lasted for maybe a year or more was around when we were 8 and 10 where we'd be playing in my parents room and he'd forcibly tackle me to the floor and try kiss me and hump me while moaning. Id try push him off and tell him off but he'd never stop. Anytime I told him off it was dismissed as 'he just likes annoying you dont listen' and 'boys will be boys'. Theres multiple times where id remember being scared of him whenever we were alone in my parents room because hes hit me and repeatedly pin me to things and hump me then anytime I tried to fight back hit me more and laughed at any pain I showed.
Its been years and im not really in contact with him anymore atleast in the sense of we dont speak monthly and I dont think its affected me too much or atleast more than any later events with other people did but I judt want other peoples opinions on if this IS cocsa and if I can count it as cocsa. I have never really spoken to anyone else about this except 2 friends years ago. Im not mad at him or anything he was just a kid as well and his bio dad was abusive but i cant help but feel that I still have issues with trusting people or not oversharing sexual details constantly.