u/AlgaeAntique5679

I tried stopping but i always find my way back to it, and i can only get in the mood when i watch these extreme taboo fetishes( i don't want to share details but its genuinely fucked)

i truly feel my soul is tainted, and when i look at myself in the mirror i feel really bad. i've been acting when i'm at work, acting when i'm with friends or family. but if they know what i watch when i'm alone i legit won't have family or friends or even a job.

the problem is every time i say or stop for like a few weeks even MONTHS, i always get back to the dark side of things.

please help me, i tried deleting social media, i tried it all, but nothing lasts or fixed me.