Help Me (Self-Consciousness and My Difficulty with Asking How to Shave)
I'm quite young, only about 14½, but I have started to notice facial and body hair. Lucky for me I used to be blonde (I now have darker, more brown hair) so this hair is not very visible. However, I am very self-conscious about everything from how my hair bulges around my glasses to how I act both in public and in private (even when nobody can see me). In school I often overhear other kids talking about shaving and all that even when their hair is barely visible after not shaving for weeks. This makes me feel like I too should start shaving and that even if I may not notice it, other will (ie., body hair). This was only recently confirmed about 2-3 months ago when a friend of mine said that I needed to shave my mustache/peach fuzz, whatever. When I got home, I noticed that it was darker around the edges and made it look awkward. Anyways, and I apologize if this doesn't seem like it has anything to do with shaving, but I did (and I know it may seem gross) used my father's razor to just see what I would look like if I shaved. Going back to how I said I was, and still am, very self-conscious, I have not and can not seem to bring myself to asking my father how to shave. What would you guys do? I feel as if I should already know how to do this and that it's common knowledge, so asking makes me feel incredibly stupid and embarrassed.
Also, I would like to note that I would want to have clear skin and not have any stubble. Meaning that I would feel very embarrassed to ask my dad to get a women's razor or something of the like. (I do not know how to properly voice this fear)
Thanks to you all in advance!
P.S. I am a guy in case that may not have been obvious or anything. I am not opposed to getting suggestions from the other gender (lady's shaving) as I do want clearer and smoother skin.