took a little while to understand it, and decided to move forward...
"This is not just any ordinary goodbye post—it’s a confession and a rant, so please read it.
After thinking about it for many days, I’ve finally decided to step down as a moderator and leave this community for my own good and peace of mind. This decision isn't linked to any current or past conflicts, because honestly, I just don't care about that anymore. This is my own decision, and I made it very clear to myself yesterday that I must take this step to take the burden off my shoulders.
The truth is, I’m not who you think I am. My name, my identity—it’s all been a hoax.
I joined this community at a time when I was incredibly lonely. I wanted friends to talk to and people to share my thoughts and feelings with. Looking back, the way I went about it was a bad idea. Ever since I joined, I failed to follow the basic guidelines of this group, and I still can't believe I did that and got away with it. Was it because I wanted attention? Because I just wanted someone to talk to? I don't know, but I did it.
When I say I lied, I mean about every single aspect you know about me here. I won't go into detail, but I think you understand.
Ultimately, I failed to make friends. There are a few people here I really like and wanted to be pals with, but I couldn't express it, so it fell through. It might sound funny, but I feel bad when someone doesn't reply to my comments. I instantly assume they don't like me and don't want to be my friend, so I just avoid them next time.
A few times, I might have posted some creepy comments. I was never actually like that; it was purely for attention and nothing else. I am quite the opposite in real life.
In real life, I don't really have friends—just one, and we only meet up occasionally, not regularly. Since I’ve failed to make both online and offline friends, I’m going to stop forcing it and just become a bit of a bookworm from now on.
By 'opposite,' I mean I have lied a lot here about everything. I don't feel good about it, and I've hated myself for doing it. To make sure it doesn't happen again, I need to end it here and leave for good. I’m not leaving the app entirely, just leaving this community and my position as a mod. The time I spent here was fun, but it was also sad. I am deeply sorry to anyone I’ve caused pain to, whether intentionally or unintentionally. Please forgive me.
I am not posting this for sympathy. I just didn't want to simply disappear; I wanted to say a proper goodbye.
I will be locking the comments on this post because I don't want to be disturbed.
Take care.
