How do I tell them I cant do it anymore
My sister hasn't been formally diagnosed with bipolar but several of my family members, including me, and she herself have suspected that she might have it for years, Alcohol is what I think brings out the worse of it though, she'll have episodes even when sober of course but substances only enhance it. In the last year shes wrecked two cars, physically fought my brother in law and her ex boyfriend. She had a bad episode with me in the car and tried to leave me stranded on a highway. She got a dui earlier this year too.
Shes 25 making her 4 years older then me and I just feel like I cant do It anymore, ive looked after her since I was kid since shes always suffered with depression and anxiety, I've been praised for being the "mature" one for years and have been constantly asked by my parents to look after her and do for her what she "cant" do for herself.
I managed all her dui aftermath, bailed her our and found her a lawyer, made sure she attended all her courts on time since shes always later to every appointment. even did school work for her during this time while being a full time student myself bc I didnt want her to fall behind due to the episode she was in.
I've done my best to extend empathy and understand that she cant control her illness, but I think ive reached my end with what happened this week, long story short she got incredibly angry with a family member, took ans Uber home and turned off her cell.
My parents and I got home couldnt find her then panicked, my mom found her outside passed out and when I myself reached her she was so cold and stiff I thought she was dead, a whole mess happened after that im still not ready to even word or spell out, the ambulance came with police, she got physical with me slapped and pushed me, fought my father too. He has high blood pressure and ended up getting really sick, this was all the night before a monumental family event too.
I know she was drunk but even after sobering up the next morning she stated she didnt care about anything that happened, when I told her that I was afraid of her she scoffed and told me she wouldn't hit me again. I love my sister, but I feel used, I feel like everything I do for her is completely disregarded the second I do one thing she doesnt like, I have OCD and have been experiencing a multitude of health issues I donr feel capable of extending more empathy or acting as if I hold no resentment or anger for her after her episodes pass.
Truth is I have so much hatred for her. I hate being her younger sister. I know a next episode will come, and I dont want to be involved I dont want to be her savior anymore. How do I tell her this without making her feel like shit