u/Alone_Mushroom_3322

I'm totally shattered, though I was not expecting much but atleast I expected to qualify it. I'm shattered to not see my roll no. in the list. I have lost all hopes from life.

A. I know I wasn't prepared but I wanted to know where do I stand and was expecting to atleast qualify.

B. I had not given GTs at all. And was not good with the question practice.

I don't know what to do now. I'm so lost. My hands are shivering while typing this. Please help. Take me through.

Oh god!!

Hey guys, I'm too much drunk rn, idk , what I'm writing, i just wana tell everyone, uhwgsv i kivs him like crazy,

I wish I coudl tell h I'm tht, .

I wana marry him..

Pls god tell him thakl i live him.

I live hine god, tell him that I'm carzi abt him

It's all abt him.!!!!!!

Here me out people,

I was working a while back, I met a guy at my work place, who was very attractive, everyone's favorite, perfect at his work, very calm very cool.

Initially I just noticed him and we became friends and I was nowhere in any state to get into a relationship or any sort of romantic equation.

But slowly I started to like him, and got to know, he liked me too. Our feelings were on our faces, in our eyes, smiles and blushing all day, wandering around each other while at work, but unconfessed.

So later one day, one of our colleague invited us over for a house party, there were 6-7 of us.

I was so excited that him and I are gonna be spending time out of the work place and get drunk.

We started with the drinks, played some games, he got a call in the middle of this, I was high by this time.

So I followed him out of jealousy/curiosity, to know whom he's talking to, it was a group of friends video call, when I asked, he instantly introduced me to them and cut the call post that.

We were in the balcony, just the two of us. Half drunk , I asked him, can I hug you, he smiled and blushed a little and said, ofcourse you can! I hugged and then with my arms around him, and intense eye contact, I just said, WHY DON'T YOU SAY IT! , He was like what? And i continued, THAT YOU LIKE ME!! and he blushed again and said, I thought you know it already. And this was it, it was the moment of love, we were looking at each other and he leaned in to kiss me, I took a pause, as I was not really sure about it but then I was like, this is it. We shared the most beautiful kiss that night. Then we went back to our friends, and continued with the games all were playing, later we spent the whole night sitting on a recliner together and stealing small pecks and just talking.

The next morning when we went to work and I was not even able to look at him after what happened last night.

I was scared what if he backs off, but he stepped forward and considered the thing that we should seriously date, we were in that talking phase only when just after 5-6 of that party, he got a call letter to join a new job in a new city in another state, I was so shattered, because somewhere I was getting emotionally invested. We both were sad about it, he had to leave his current job stat, and join the next in the next 3 days.

After that we again met once and he said he would call me everyday, no matter what he's doing, I'm always on his mind. On the last day he came to meet me at the office, he gave me a warm hug and left.

After that he used to call me but with that came fights and little insecurities, and we slowly started becoming distant. We hadn't committed to each other yet, I also wanted to take my time before committing. But slowly he started to make lesser calls, saying that he's busy with the new job and all of that. From talking everyday to once in 3-4 days, and then once a week, it became like that.

But I'm crying and dying out of expectations, I feel like I want him more, I want love from him, all of his attention, care and love. Is it wrong to expect? I said all this to him a few times and backed off seeing no real efforts.

But whenever I back off, he comes again, that why don't you ever call me. Feels like he also wants it, but then he is the kind who'd wait for the other person to take steps.

MY PROBLEM NOW IS, I'M NOT ABLE TO MOVE ON FROM THIS, though we shared a beautiful moment, later 6 days after that he went and now it's been 6 months to this and everyday I just keep thinking about him. He is so much i

On my mind all the time.

How do I move on from this and cut myself off from this person.

Irrespective of how dearly I want him and how much I adore him, I just want to protect my peace and move on as this is clearly not working out like this.

Should I block him?