I’ve been really down in the dumps and it’s reflected in everything I do, I don’t know what to do.
I’ve taken Wellbutrin recently and it seems to be working really well. I also recently started going to a therapist and I haven’t been able to have but one session where I asked if it was right to be upset about something relating to my trauma where she filled the rest of the hour saying no I’m justified, but that’s it. I think I should suggest next session to talk about this stuff.
In the past couple years especially I don’t know just everything feels like everything has gone wrong.
I had what I’m positive is an undiagnosed eating disorder, I lost best friend, had no friends, gained weight where I feel like shit… so on and so on.
I can’t shake that I have no interest in things, I mean I hide it to an extent but to like my boyfriend for example, he knows something is wrong and it hurts him. I just got to a point where I’d bed rot and that’s what I would be doing except he pulled me to stop that. Regardless, I don’t want to do the things I love doing and they haven’t truly brought me joy either.
Im stressed I feel like so much is on my plate and the world will quite literally end if it’s not all completed but at the same time I can’t do it all because I’m stuck and it’s so overwhelming so it ends up depressing me more.
Im lost. I have so much sadness I just keep locked inside and I don’t talk about it, eventually I forget about it because that’s how I’ve learned to cope with my problems that’s too much to handle.
I feel so broken and I don’t feel like me anymore. I want to dress nice and workout and make myself feel better but I also know that it won’t help and deep inside I’ll just feel the same way.
I don’t know what to do anymore.