u/AlternativeMud9302

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Suns shine

You the sun and i the moon, always chasing, yet forever soon.

blinded was i but not by light, by instead it would seem, what was mine own plight, i thought my light shone on you, perhaps a beacon to lead you through, through the night unto dawn, everyone knows the sun doesnt away long.

i know now that this was wrong, you were the one shone light all along.

not through tender love or legitimacy, but through the feelings you inspired in me.

For like the moon, i too feared light, content forever to glow, if only i might, find a sun to guard my nights.

devoid of life, yet craving sight, but to be seen, this time, feels a disastrous slight. For the dark within me consumes all light, and this is one star that i would rather not bite.

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But woe is me, en-viced i appear to be, or perhaps, it is simply gravity, that pulls me, or maybe an event horizon are we, oft’ you do seem to consume me.

though i know both hearts are through, The minds they wander, true. forms never far, yet always out of reach. The melody of her voice a hymn, i am to keep, a sacred utterance of the divine, a melancholy memory of the suns first shine

And just out of sight, a beautiful shimmer. A ghost of you, or something dimmer? A light so grand it could never grow thinner, the light of love? Or the end of a sinner?

we had been deemed, it would seem, not as celestials bound in orbit, but, a comfortable cataclysm, so we may be reborn. To reignite the core of our beings, and remove the thorns of past lovely grievings

Lessons learned, ego torn, heart asunder i lay forlorn. And, yet still, i pray for you.

ALWAYS you.

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u/AlternativeMud9302 — 1 hour ago

How do you guys do it

My father is a narcissist, as a result of those unhealed wounds i often gravitate towards emotionally unavailable women romantically, the most recent partner was a raging narcissist with dismissive avoidant tendencies chasing physical validation and ego highs based on vanity and reactivated a lot of those old wounds. So my question is how do we heal from the core wounds to avoid attracting or tolerating people that are just more of the same as our parents out of undeserved loyalty or trauma bonds

Edit: i just want to say thank you to all of the people that spoke up with feedback and support

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u/AlternativeMud9302 — 13 days ago