u/Altruistic-Lie-8725

I think I am not in a worst case but I'm just hating myself. Gambling takes half of my monthly pay as installment so I need to cut the amount that I give my wife everymonth for caring our kid and life. my wife said that I can cut more just to let me be comfortable for my personal expenses. that's not even relieve but torturing me more. The problem is I'm still thinking about chasing my losses and that makes me feel like I'm betraying her. Even though she said that but I can feel her faith in me down and the intimacy between us also down.