156 days clean. 7 year, all day every day. dabs, edibles, bud, all of it. sold it to the homies on the low so I could for free. I know ball lol.
I can't help but think of the good times I had stoned. My life has completely turned around and I feel like I have a new lease on life. But my brain keeps trying to trick me back into smoking! Its so frustrating!
Sometimes I look at it like I was stoned for over 2555 days pretty much in a row (minus a couple sober weeks sprinkled in). 156 days is barely 6% of that time, yet I have accomplished more in these days than I have in the last 1000 days and its not even close.
I am frustrated with my brain continuously telling me I can handle it, its different now, etc. I know its a lie because one is too many and a thousand is never enough.
Any suggestions on how to break yourself of this romanticizing shit im doing. love yall.