Failed driving test twice; worried about my skills in driving and social status
Hi, just to start first, I'm M17 and I've had my learner's permit for almost two yers now and am just finishing my junior year in high school. Last summer I attempted the driving test twice, and failed both; my first time I didn't even enter the testing zone and failed in the parking lot of the DMV (I accidentally accelerated when I should've braked due to anxiety), and on my second time I failed while backing out and hit a cone in the parking spot in the testing area. I'm registered for a private test administration through a learning course, and I'm hopeful I'll do well with that, but I just feel so ashamed sometimes because I feel inferior and less "grown up" than my peers in high school. Also, I feel somewhat lesser because my driving skills, which have described as jerky. I've had a lot of distress thinking about this, and I get almost physically upset thinking about going to the DMV for the test (which is not really present now b/c I'll be taking a state-approved private test, but still).
I hope what I've said makes sense. Feel free to respond!