Just lost all that I really cared about
Done 5 days sober and decided that today (pay day) id buy a litre of vodka and a 4 pack of 8.6% polish beer. Drank the litre before I got home and opened the beers when I got home and low and behold the love of my life comes home and she knows I am drunk but I lie to her and say I’ve only drunk beer ( of course ) and she just leaves lol I have done this to myself and I just can’t do this I don’t know why this is the one thing that has such this strong hold on me I beat molly addiction by myself I beat xanax by myself I never needed any help and now I just can’t stop drinking and I’m just like oh my god I am literally sitting on the couch just drinking more while writing this and I’m just so sick of it 😐😐😐 I don’t expect anyone to see this or answer me I just need to get it out I am so sick of this legal poison