I think I posted that I moved from beer to wine to whisky to vodka. Typically I can pass out in my bed or couch with no weird texts but with the switch to vodka, I just woke up on the bathroom floor with like 3 weird texts I sent. Is this the boss fight?
Time to take a break 😴 Need something to keep my mind occupied. What do yall recommend ? Favorite games are Bloodborne & Max Payne 3. Favorite movies are Fight Club, Oceans Eleven, Spirited Away. Just need recommendations to not be bored haha
Doesn't even need to be ca characters but what do you all like? I've been watching a ton of Always Sunny, Trailer Park Boys, Review, listening to The Gaslight Anthem and Bob Seger, playing Saros. What are you all into?
I’ve been struggling making it to work and today was one of those days. I just couldn’t bring myself to walk inside the building.
Everybody in my family has my location so they know whether or not I go to work and if I don’t go they immediately question what I’m doing and what was the reason for not going to work so here I am at my jobs parking lot, pounding some buzz balls waiting for the “end” my shift and yeah, I could probably go to work, but it wouldn’t be safe and I just don’t wanna deal with putting up the facade today.
This definitely feels like a sort of rock bottom and I hate lying to everyone, but it’s just the frame of mind I’m in right now.
I work at a warehouse and my soon to be fiancee is a working professional with so much ahead of her. I cant help but think she deserves better. If only she knew what I was actually doing rather than working. I can’t take my phone into work for “security” reasons so lying is a lot easier since my location is always in the car anyways.
Chairs guys ya’ll help me out more than you will ever know
Hey guys
I know we’re not doctors bla bla
I can normally drink pretty endlessly and not get sick. But both yesterday and today I ended up throwing up a bunch. I don’t normally throw up
I WANT to believe I’m just drinking a lot too fast, not enough food. I did try to eat more today
I need to stop for many reasons. Going to try to not buy anymore. I am a little worried it seems like my tolerance jumped off a cliff and that seems…not good
Bananas. People dont realize, in end stage alcoholism the physical symptoms are gut/ nerve disruption. It ends up being systemic and complicated too.. but the thing is.. your gut regulates your nervous system and vice versa. Im here to talk about staying alive basically. Not to preach. I will start coughing from the stomach acid when its time to drink. A humble banana is so easy to digest and neutralizes that alcohol calling acid. Plus potassium. Electrolytes fam. Happy 4th5th
TLDR: i ate a banana. You eat a banana 🐒
Just woke up WRENCHED in my lower half. I definitely pissed my bed and I have to wake up in 2 hours for the gym and then work and I’m disgusting and just washed my sheets yesterday, how tf I only piss myself sleeping with vodka. God fucking dammit my room smells and so do I. Happy fucking Monday
I’ve tried to post this elsewhere but my dad died six years ago and I’m still not over it. I wish there was some version of a help line where I could call a volunteer dad to help me out just talking. I was a huge daddy’s girl and it Fricken kills me that he’s gone
This weekend SUCKED!!! Had some friends come into town for the 4th weekend. I was really going at the botte the week before and so i thought I’d just continue the bender and dry out after my friends leave. Nope.
Couldn’t keep a shot down for the 1st 2 days they were there. I had to drive a total of 8 hours picking people up from airports and shit in 90+ weather in damn near full wd’s. I’m already sweating from no booze and now its hot as fuck AND im driving. Anyways, we went to NYC on friday and if you’ve ever been there during the summer, Manhattan can sometimes be 10 degrees hotter than the surrounding cities. It was absolute hell! My friends were hot, sure, but im DRENCHED in sweat the whole time. Thank god SOME subway cars have A/C.
I convinced the group to stop at a bar and i got 3 drinks in me and that got me to at least stop sweating so much, but that only lasts like an hour max lol. Im sure yall have had similar situations and just felt like sharing. Chairs!
TL;DR: I was a sweaty monster for 4 days
No job at the moment and i usually do surveys to afford my habit, for whatever reason Sundays always have no surveys or the worst ones. Just curious what are some ways you guys make money to afford your booze?
I'm sure I'll get some hate for this post. Don't care. But you know what would be cool? To dig a little... Everyone hates this..hates that. Drinks far too much and we all accept it because were all here. But I think it'd be fun to get down to the nitty gritty. What got you here? Whats the real reason you want to drown every day? Was it your parents and your upbringing? Is it the never ending battle against income/economy? It is someone you lost long ago that you can't really let go of? Is it trying to figure out your purpose and not finding the answer fast enough? Just curious... whats your REAL REASON. Not some bullshit oh I just started doing this and here's where im at
yo just fuck this shit. Fuck every single thing on earth. I hate it here. I don't want to fucking be here.
Therapist is on leave until August but she wasn't really helping much anyway.
I just remembered Pokemon Go exists and redownloaded it a few days ago. Having a blast tbh. I forgot it existed, I think I last played it in like 2020 during covid and deleted it because I am a poor with always a shitty phone. But I've been playing it the past few days and it's been a nice distraction, also a nice excuse to be leaving the house at 11pm for a beer run because I live with my mom again. She knows I like pokemans. Never thought I'd be 35, single, living at home without a single friend in the whole world but here I am. Time to play some pokemans. I wanna play Pokemon go this summer like it's 2016 when it first came out. Fuck yeah
The street won. Well it was technically a gravel road/path and not a street but I lost to it badly.
Kept falling on it over and over and over as I was trying to walk back home completely shitfaced and now I look like I was on the losing end of a UFC fight. Absolutely covered head to toe in nasty scrapes over almost every body part somehow lmao. I'm in disbelief that I woke up with my phone next to me and it wasn't broken, and that I made it to a bed at all.
Chairs fuckers, hope you had a decent night
I'm still going to drink it of course. It is called "Outlaw Light".
Outlaw light tastes like you mixed Natural light with cat piss. No one wants to buy them so they reduced 12 packs to $2.50 at Albertsons and Safeway, so I got them.
As a CA I'm pretty thrilled I got 24 beers for $5, but I'm less thrilled about drinking a beer pissier tasting than the worst light beers.
What is the nastiest stuff you have bought just because it was cheap?
For me it's this Outlaw Light for beer, Bartons Vodka for liq, and Mad Dog 20/20 for random category.
i'd like to think it's just freaks doing it, but it probably doesn't help if people are spending $1k on a ticket, which i think is insane but no one asked me. i always hated general admission concerts.
i'm sure maintenance has always had to clean up vomit after a show because you know, drugs, alcohol, etc. but this doesn't sound like "accidents."
Has anybody ever successfully tapered using vodka? It's not ideal, I know, but I can't afford beer to do a long enough taper to where I feel it would be safe (because I realize you can be fine for like 72 hours, then suddenly have a seizure). Unfortunately vodka is the least expensive manner to do this with. But I'm deep in shit, guys. And I can't go to the hospital for detox for reasons I will not get into. Please, impart your wisdom on me!
I purposely buy plastic bottles, shooters and handles to prevent glass clanking. I had to move back home and my family is obviously not supportive of my drinking. My mom works from home and my dad is retired. So I have to hide them til they go somewhere together, take out the lowest garbage can at the bottom of the lid and throw the others on top. I figure the weight prevent any sound. The extremes we go to is insane but chairs.
Sup fellow degenerates, to make a long story short, I got super drunk for 6 days straight. I'll be returning to my sober living house from vacation and most likely will have to do a urine test. It'll be ~80 hours after my last drink.
If I fail I'll be kicked out. I also look like shit and extended my vacation so I'm not even going back on the day I was originally scheduled to, so, yikes. Feel like they'll be suspicious.
I've gone frantically through my texts and call history and didn't out myself to the house (besides extending the trip).
Anyways I really do not want to become homeless so if anyone has tips on what I should do, I'd be very grateful. Also, idk what brick and mortar stores reliably carry urine tests for alcohol, seems most only carry drug urine tests.
Hope my post isn't too annoying and I'd appreciate any input on my situation. Chairs
aight so i will justify my behavior a bit here though i am owning up to my actions. parent just got diagnosed with cancer, unemployed yet fit and creative bum, marriage problems, unmanageable anxiety etc
something happened, i did a lot of drugs and took 5 tequila shots back to back w the bartenders at a closed bar and in a black out i completely lost all bodily functions. passed out in the middle of our town's like "bar crawl" area. did not pee on myself. my husband had to get the police involved to carry me home and with me hating cops and all i apparently would not let them touch me which is arguably hilarious. unfortunately involving them now makes my drinking a mental health crisis which kind of sucks they won't leave me alone now. i have zero recollection, several cops had to take me inside my house and all my neighbors got involved etc
husband texts me a link accidentally for "meeting strangers for sex" at 4am
i convinced him to get me wine to get through the day using that as an excuse and also i do not want to be seen at the liquor store in my very small very nosy town
it has now gotten to the point where when i get to this stage i am actively trying to kill myself. edit: also i would like to state that my particular form of self-harm is starving myself so. i'm sure you see where i go with this.
you know what, whatever. i want to drown in substances until i feel nothing. chairs
Knew I had a bit too much. Was sneaking out my vodka in the staff room and gulped too much too fast because I was worried someone would come in.
This is my second day at work (wiatressing) btw. So not a good impression at all but at least I was too calm to panic.
I’ll let yall know when I get fired. Chairs. 😊