r/cripplingalcoholism

Made a post here maybe 2 months ago about how I’m relapsing but this time “I have rules and will be responsible”

Many people told me I’m fucked and I should have listened.

Fast forward to now and I’m drinking about a fifth - liter of Brandy a day. Still managing no morning drinking but I’m having shots during lunch to get through work.

So clearly my plan for no physical dependence has failed. Nowhere close to my previous withdrawals. I think the no morning drinking is saving me.

I’ve got like 6 0.5mg klonopins. took one this morning when the anxiety and shaking was beginning. It seems to have calmed me down substantially.

I wonder if I’m good to just not take anymore or if my withdrawals will progress when the kpin wears off.

Gonna dry out for a couple days and repeat the cycle until I run out of benzos and am truly fucked. I’ve got AUD in my medical file so I’m screwed for life in terms of being prescribed them.

I’m so poor I can’t even afford a half pint of Skol. It’s like $3. FML how did I get wrapped up in this? I have precisely one Klonopin. Pray for me folks, this is going to be a bumpy landing. Pour one out for me because I’m screwed.

Chairs

Just trying to think of a title caused me to stare in space for a good 10 seconds.incant think. I know it’s always been the booze. I’ve been told that many times. I’ve noticed the improvement when I stop for a few days. But here I am. After losing eve try thing.

I’ve been taken to the hospital many times, doc visits, benzodiazepines for withdrawal, many chances to stop, all that. Now I’m stuck in a hotel after losing my life, haven’t been able to eat for months really, just small bites. I exploded on my partner and stepdaughter. Finally got kicked out by the roommates we were living with. I don’t have my cat or dog, not that I’ve been very good at taking care of them anyway. But now I’m alone. Threw up blood this morning, but still having a Long Island ice tea mixed drink so I could stop the shakes.

I can’t do anything. Lost my job back in March from drinking, only had a few days off from drinking fb since then. I was warned this would happen. I couldn’t stop and I still can’t.

Idk what the point of this post is other than just to not feel so alone

Won't tell me details, 13 weeks long, won't tell me percentages of applicants finish the study and won't tell me the compensation.

You still want it? I wouldn't fuck with them if I lived on campus.

If I let her post the link, y'all better mind your manners. I'll ban you for talking shit to people you ask me to put you in touch with.

Just landed a job after months of looking. I was drunk in the interview and when asked about gaps in my resume I said I was on maternity leave. It didn’t occur to me that my boss will definitely notice my lack of three offspring.

I guess I can pretend they died or I lost custody or something. I even showed this chick photos of my cousins as if they’re my kids. Fuck. Either way, I need a few more shots to celebrate (getting the job, not eliminating the children). Pour one out for me and my theoretical spawns

My friend went to Vegas and went on a massive record breaking bender. Called me from the hospital with a busted face and incoherently drunk even thought he had a flight that night. This was yesterday afternoon.

Last night he texted me that his flight was cancelled and then radio silence. Went all day today without hearing from him until his dad reached out— apparently my buddy lost his phone and didn’t show up for the new flight he rebooked for this afternoon. Last he heard from him was this morning and he found out he didn’t make it to his flight by calling the airline. No one’s heard from him all day. He was sober for a few months prior to this and so he’s drinking like he used to in peak CA with the lowest tolerance so he’s been pretty incoherent this whole time. It’s been like 4 days of this.

I’m so worried. I don’t know what to think. His family’s filed a missing persons report. I’ve checked the jail records. Just needed to vent. I really hope we find him cause my brain is going worst case scenario

Edited for timeline clarity

This is NOT medical advice, I’m not a doctor, etcetera etcetera.

For the last couple of years I have had a hard time keeping muscle on. A little research has revealed that on top of the thirst for sauce I’m probably way low on protein intake. I’m a middle aged man with this lifestyle, and weighing in at like 165 lb I probably need 125-150 grams of protein per day. This is surprisingly difficult to pull off when you aren’t hungry.

Tonight on my way home I ran into an old cowboy that I’ve known for years at the grocery store. He is a drunk. I hadn’t seen him in a while and holy shit does he look frail. He was using the cart to hold himself up, just a bag of fuckin bones. We bullshitted for a couple minutes, and he is clearly in deep shit from the looks of it. I was surprised he recognized me given how fucked up he seemed.

TLDR: Eat. Especially protein. And don’t follow the RDAs (70 ish grams) for protein if you are a boozer, it’s likely not enough.

Hello all. I know you are not doctors and I am not asking for medical advice, just home remedies to ease discomfort. I suffer from ongoing gastritis. Once it landed me in ED and it seems to be triggered even if I drink small amounts for several days in a row.

The last few days I have been stuck feeling awful and not able to do anything I actually wanted to get done.

Aside from the obvious like antacids, what do you all do to ease the horrible chest discomfort and shortness of breath that comes with gastritis?

4-5 day bender, drinking around the clock and barely eating. Decided I was done and the shakes and sweats became so miserable I thought I might have a seizure. Went to the hospital and they helped me out with the IVs and benzos I feel like this either a milestone in my debauchery or a sign to turn it around. We shall see chairs.

So I got drunk at work and they said they need to drug test me because they’re suspicious and then they sent me home to wait for the results in a few days, I’m hoping that drug test doesn’t test for alcohol or I’m likely fucked, I really needed this job

I'm not going to worry about the details until I count votes. It has something to do Cbg use by Alkies.

Don't debate in this thread. Only respond Yes (I want to try)

Or No (I don't want any lab dorks in here ever in life)

I will count em up till tomorrow and see what yall decide.

If you come in here with your fuckin opinion and novelization, I will delete your comment. Yes or No Only.

Go get em, champ

I know I am a complete asshole for this but I genuinely dread hanging out with people now. I hope the weather is bad so I don’t have to make up some excuse. Any advice? I just want to drink alone after work and on the weekends. I think that would come across badly though .

seen like 5 posts about leaving las vegas and i thought “lmao i’ve seen more heart wrenching movies bring it on”

nope..

it was such a hard watch. damn. this life isn’t it. and i want out or i wanna go like him. can’t choose between the two. love my dog and cat too much i suppose. love my partner even though i’ve been given ultimatum after ultimatum. what really got me was him burning that photo of him and his wife and kid. he really just decided booze was all that mattered. tough to realize there was like over an hour left in the movie after that lol.

Do you guys ever think when you’re at the liquor store that you’ll be good, because you have things coming up, and this will be enough to last 2 days and then will take a break
But deep down you know yourself so you don’t buy too much so it’s not a huge deal if you drink all of it, maybe only wake up feeling mildly shitty compared to what could be?
Could have saved myself a trip but I suppose I could use a walk tomorrow anyway

Yeah so i had to get some xanax today as i started to become aggressive.

All my wd symptoms like shaking,anxiety,sweating was gone today i still have insomnia and a bit depression but have still slept some the dreams are very intense and vivid feels so real.

Today though i started to become angry very easily and just kept thinking of alcohol whenever i started to get mad and impulsive. Basically, i was turning to a total fucking mean asshole to others.

Even casual conversations annoyed me ALOT. Otherwise i felt i was in the clear. Well Ksalol made me myself again, for now. Chairs for yall though, i need this break.

I recently developed a rash on my neck that isn't getting better with antifungal cream, gold bond, A&D, etc. My bestie knows my issues with drinking and did some research for me and it turns out that it's likely my body not processing alcohol normally anymore. So basically I have to quit or look like a mutant (my eyes have also been kinda puffy and red on the skin around them.)

I don't want to quit. Drinking is my favorite thing to do. I don't like life all that much, and it's what helps keep me going until this shit is over.

Is the only true way to apologize to go sober? Like do my apologies not mean anything if I keep drinking? Probably not because I'll keep fucking up and being scummy. Will they not take my attempts to be better seriously unless I go sober? Is that why we lose friendships and burn bridges? Because we'd rather just keep on drinking ?

Being homeless aint the one! At least london has good parks and i can chill there (UK)

Sat here on my sis' floor. Got my drink. Watching my show. I've been told off so many times but i havent changed. I'm bottom barrel like that. Will i get more drink? We'll see....

Id probably get banned because of this shit but i dont see this as medical advice.

So when i drink alot, i start hearing a couple over me talking about me. All the time, every hour. Now i know this is bullshit as its all night also.

When i get on a to big bender i also hear everyone on my job talking about drug testing me and how im a bad person, this goes away after like 4 days without the booze. But the voices at home still persist but calm down after a week but are still there. Is this a CA thing, am i schisopreniz or have I traumazidet myself so bad so I hear them so much because i expect them?

...and to avoid drinking more before my video interview....

What is your favorite thing to chase alcohol you can't keep down without?

My choices:

-Chunky Vodka Tomato Pasta Sauce

-A1 Sauce

-Pickle Juice

-Frank's Red Hot Sauce