Do you guys ever think when you’re at the liquor store that you’ll be good, because you have things coming up, and this will be enough to last 2 days and then will take a break
But deep down you know yourself so you don’t buy too much so it’s not a huge deal if you drink all of it, maybe only wake up feeling mildly shitty compared to what could be?
Could have saved myself a trip but I suppose I could use a walk tomorrow anyway
Maybe because it’s wine or maybe I’m just getting old-ish
I was a bottle of vodka a day kind of girl once upon a time, it made me friendlier and happier. Those days are gone because withdrawals and dying of liver failure isn’t my jam
But yesterday I decided some wine would make it so much more fun to get shit done at home
And it did, but I had such an emotional and irritable night
Cried because I thought I hurt my cats feelings and my partners and just wanted to be alone
Things were surprisingly good this morning
Im hoping to just drink a little today to make the shitty feeling more tolerable because good fucking luck to me if it turns into another bender
Overthinking eating a bit of fast food, even though I just poured an unreasonable amount of poison down my throat a few days ago? What?
One of the parts I like about drying out is working on my diet/exercise and how much better I feel
I’ve always had a bit of an obsession over food that kind of goes out the window while I’m being a drunk and comes back hard when I have to get sober
And these withdrawals are brutal:( bit of a bender over the weekend and ended it with getting plastered instead of my usual constant buzz, and I did some things I’m not proud of.
Unfortunately I’ve been through this quite a few times, and it’s so hard to push through the worst, poison running through my body and feeling like this time is the end of me
I didn’t eat enough to start a successful taper so here I am being pathetic in bed for a couple more wasted days of my life
All I can really do is keep drinking my electrolytes and sip on soup until things get a bit more bearable
I usually delete these posts but I’m gonna try to leave this one up to read when I wanna get drunk again
If anyone is going heavy on the drinks this is your reminder to eat well or you’ll end up with barely 1hp
I thought I wasn’t doing too bad but damn I’m kinda fucked up
I’ve been sick from drinking and withdrawals probably at least 5 times this year and swear I’ll never get to that point again
The better news about this time was I waited until my days off so I’m free to suffer in my bed and nobody has to know how bad I feel, except my wonderful boyfriend who’s bringing me some soup tonight
I’m usually more of a consistently buzzed drinker but thought it would be fun to get drunk yesterday at a family function
I definitely wasn’t alone in that but really hoping I didn’t do anything too embarrassing
I think I’m done puking so time to try to find some good movies to watch and try to forget what I feel like
Edit: by my monthly routine I mean withdrawals, I’m usually a daily drinker
I usually tough out the withdrawals but I have social family obligations today and I think I can manage to get enough drinks down the hatch
I have time to be a sick loser tomorrow but today I’m going to carry on being an idiot 😎
I think I’m more concerned and embarrassed because my eyes are very puffy from crying last night
But I’ve been wanting to wear my cool new sunglasses and hat anyway
So here I go
I need to cut it out for a little bit so I don’t die and I just want to be by myself but unfortunately I have to remain a functioning human today and tomorrow
Almost want to admit to being a degenerate and tell everyone to leave me alone for the weekend
Honestly this could be a lot worse, the sweating is worse than usual but I’m not shaking or puking so I’m going to work sipping on electrolytes and my drink of choice wish me luck
Sorry if this is a dumb question I’m just genuinely curious!
Mine have made it all to easy to become a CA because I’ve worked in full blown customer service since straight out of high school and the booze makes me more sociable and confident. Was constantly buzzed at work for years up until a couple months ago.
I straight up walked out of my last job when I was withdrawing and tried to get into something different but the only places that want me so far are the ones I have experience in lmao I’m stuck. At least I still have one
I used to be pretty much an all day every day drinker, just enough that I was always buzzed, mainly these 12% cosmos/martinis that I really like, always ended badly.
Recently I’ve somehow managed to keep the drinking to social settings and events, maybe a couple days a week on average and not drinking alone. (I have considered sobriety but clearly not ready for it yet I guess)
Well today I slipped up a little and grabbed 4 of those drinks for today. Not enough to really get drunk or cause a hangover but more than my usual 1 and just something else like cider.
I don’t know if this is just a “hangxiety” thing but the regret is real, the memories and feelings of my last withdrawal are lingering and the guilt is eating me alive, mainly because I drank behind my partner’s back, I’m supposed to tell him these things, he doesn’t get mad and I know I can tell him anything but the words just won’t come out yet.
Pretty confident I’ll be able to stay home away from the liquor store tomorrow and get my shit together but the awful truth is that if I’d bought anymore I’d definitely be having a worse day tomorrow because I know damn well I’d convince myself a couple more won’t hurt and probably do it again hungover
My husband and I are having a hard time finding new movies to watch this weekend
Some of our favourite movies are Smile, Orphan, The Dirt, Friendship, Harry Potter and lord of the rings
We like horror, drama, stupid comedy, not a fan of romance if it’s too cheesy but otherwise open to it
Looking for movies beyond witty/normal comedies, more like something so stupid it’s hilarious
A good example is friendship with Paul Rudd
I’m that kind of alcoholic who just likes to be buzzed 24/7 and hides it really well.
Until my body can’t take it anymore and I’m so deep in withdrawal and it’s the end of the fucking world.
I’m either gonna successfully wait this out or surrender and tell my poor fiancé that he needs to throw me in rehab because apparently him watching me suffer last time wasn’t enough!
My only comfort is that I’ve made it through worse which is surprising because who the fuck does this to themselves multiple times
If anyone cares to read! I made a post earlier this week after what felt like a near death experience. After a little more hell and mental turmoil I started feeling joy again last night.
Before I went to the hospital I just straight up walked out of work because I knew what was going to happen. Not the classiest move, but I’ve decided I’m not going back. I probably did more than half my drinking on that job! Surprisingly I’m not sure anyone knew and I never got in trouble for it but I’m convinced most people there are on something. Already started the new job search which is always stressful but there’s lots of options out there for me.
I think it would be a lie to say I’ll never have another drink again but I’m happy with cutting it out for now and seeing how long I can go and how much better my life gets, because I know I don’t need it. So grateful for my fiancé for helping immensely to get me through it and being there if I ever start to slip again. Hope you all have a great weekend
Sorry if this isn’t allowed. I won’t get into much detail about my withdrawal right now but holy shit. I did go to the hospital and did get one dose of diazepam and reassurance I was not actually dying and that I need to quit.
I’m detoxing and resting at home with electrolytes, and some zzquil has been helpful, but I’m wondering if anything like that has helped you guys, specifically just with pain? I have aleve but I know it’s not great for the liver and don’t want to risk it if it could make things worse.
My alcoholism has never really caused me to do anything that bad, besides make myself violently ill. I’ve never lost a job, or been in trouble with the law, and I’m generally a better and happier person with a few drinks in my system. I don’t drink and drive or hurt people, and I’ve never been an angry drunk, until apparently right now!!
I am so mad god help the next stupid fuck who can’t leave me alone for even one damn day on my only day or two to myself.
I’ve been through way worse so I’m going to go turn the day around while I have the power to!! Espresso martinis here I come