r/dryalcoholics

So I've been "trying" to come of 500ml of vodka daily. Tonight I told my mother the truth. It's hard. I made peace with it and doctor gave me bromezapam to help. I'm so anxious about the withdrawal symptoms, but I know I made these choices. Threw out the last I had. I know I'm in for a rough time. At the moment I could get some soup and toast in. Staying hydrated and also having magnesium supplements. Why do some of us keep doing this to ourselves? Boredom, isolation, comfort? I'm just tired of this crap.

47 year old male. Scared of the next few days. 😢

I stumbled across this part of Reddit a few days ago.
Found it fitting. I turned 21 a month ago, and it's safe to say that I've been over doing it, a lot. I feel like at my age, I need to get a hold of it before it can get so much worse. But I'm also just in a state of euphoria about finally being able to buy it whenever I want.
I'm starting a full time 9-5 corporate bs job very soon and I can't have this habit of mine following me there. I think I'm young enough to fix it and shake this habit? Maybe? What should I do. Taking any advice or tips.

I’ve been on a slow burn beer bender for months. Nothing too extreme, but enough to keep me lethargic and not truly myself. literally can’t remember the last day I went without having at least 3-4 tall boys of 10% beer. Sometimes spread throughout the day, sometimes all in one sitting after work. I cut out hard alcohol (for the most part) a while ago because it was getting out of control.

Recently I’ve been getting really severe acid reflux. Starting multiple mornings each week throwing up in the shower. Also just generally out of it, being impulsive and saying and doing things I know I shouldn’t. Even when I’m not drunk I feel like there are subtle after effects that keep me from being my authentic self. I feel like I’ve numbed myself for so long I don’t really even remember what I’m like without alcohol. And I don’t think anyone around me knows what I’m like without alcohol. This is the version of me everyone knows, and it’s embarrassing to think about that.

Made the plan Friday that I wouldn’t drink the following day. I’ve made that promise to myself so many times now I didn’t even take myself seriously. Went really hard Friday night, woke up yesterday hungover, and somehow survived a family party with just NA beer. Stayed in bed after the party for about 18 hours. No im up, not hungover, doing some stretching and taking care of things around the house. Hopefully I can keep it up.

Mainly writing this to reflect on my experience.

Please delete if not allowed…

I am hoping to find a doctor or clinic that can help me manage alcohol withdrawal at home. I have been drinking, on average, 2-2.5 bottles of wine per day for the last six months as a way to deal with postpartum depression. After trying two different SSRIs and getting no where with my OB, I turned to wine and now it has become a dangerous and deadly habit. Reddit has pretty much told me that I’ll seize up and die if I don’t get medical help to detox but I am not able to go to the hospital or to a detox facility. I am terrified that I am going to die and that I will not be here for my children and I just really am hoping to find someone who is compassionate and willing to help me.

I’m located in Colorado. If anyone can make any recommendations of somewhere to go or someone to see, I would be eternally grateful. My kids are my entire world and I need to be here for them. I’m ready to be done for good but I just need a little bit of help.

TIA if you’re able to assist in any way.

36F, 185 lbs, non smoker, no rec drug use, prenatal vitamins and propranolol for high anxiety moment.

ETA: this is not an emergency and I am not in crisis mode. Just hoping to get a handle on it before it gets to that place.

Hey everyone! Hope you all are doing well.

I’m getting much better and started going back to AA meetings.

While I am not the biggest fan of AA, I thought it would be a good move to give it another try.

Some meetings I’ve been to were really awesome, inspiring and helpful. However, this particularly meeting that I went to I left early because the person running the meeting was really not nice and rude.

I get it. We’re all struggling. We’re all working to be better.

But what I don’t like, is power hungry people who think that they are holier than thou. it’s very discouraging and straight up rude.

Just because you are a chairman or chairwomen of a meeting or group doesn’t give anyone the right to be a jerk.

I wanted to start a discussion around SR-17018 because I’ve seen mixed opinions and wanted broader input.

Coming off a high dose 7oh habit was one of the hardest things I’ve dealt with. During my latest taper, I used SR-17 and noticed the withdrawal symptoms felt more tolerable than before.

I also supplemented with low-dose kratom powder, so I know that could be part of the picture.

For anyone who has used SR-17018, what was your experience? Did it help with withdrawal, sleep, cravings, or something else entirely?

Hi guys. I want to attend an online meeting today (I’m far too anxious about anonymity to do one in person) and I’m struggling to figure out how to get myself to one.

I want to attend one that’s not taking place in my country because that makes it feel more anonymous too, but I’m worried people might find me odd for doing that. I’m really talking myself out of this because of this obsession with privacy but I need to try bite the bullet, is it common for people to attend global meetings from all over the world?

ETA “might find me odd”

Hi Reddit, I’m in AA for the first time and I’m struggling with thoughts all the time.

I’m originally from Pennsylvania and I went to rehab for oxy dxm and alcohol. Upon my detox and rehab I made a decision to move to Florida and do an IOP program because my sister set it up for me and I thought it was the right choice for my safety.

In rehab I made the abrupt decision to move a day after I got out as I thought it was serious.

Mind you I just got out a serious relationship and had nothing left going for me in PA besides a job at a restaurant and going to the gym all the time.
Upon getting to Florida I thought I’d enjoy the new scenery and would be able to do the work to get sober.

I rekindled this relationship and miss them astronomically. A part of me wants to go back not just for them but to the life I had.

What it be wrong to complete then steps, get better and go back and give it another shot?
I miss more than just them . I’ll miss the weather of PA. The orange autumn. The cold temperatures, wearing heavy clothing. -20 degrees and snow. I know it sounds idiotic but I think I don’t want to live in Florida the rest of my life anyway. I could still build a life in PA if I was sober.

Meanwhile my sister put lots of effort into this to get me sober and would probably be devastated to hear this. But I’m just born between these two places. I could get a job and manager positions at a restaurant and move out.

I guess my question is would it be crazy to go back after I finish my steps and hopefully heal my brain and defects first?
Any advice helps.

I did make a similar post but it was not related to the relationship. Part of me wants to fix what I messed up and I do have the opportunity.

This is my downfall really and big trigger. So much so I have to make things fool proof but even then I'm prone to slips.

Take yesterday..... Oh boy.

It all started innocently. I was helping an elderly housebound family member to get rid of ants they had in the house as I was visiting for a few days. I don't drive so had to walk to a local store to get a bait trap for the ants.

I checked they had them in stock before leaving and the plan was to just go there, get the bait trap and a bit of shopping and come back.

I went there.... No stock FFS, the shelf was empty. So by then I decided to head further into town to go to another store to get it.

Honestly, if that planned store had it, i'd have got it and come back but alas.

So I went to that other store and nope, they didn't sell it. So I go deeper into town and finally found somewhere that did. Sorted.

From there I walked back to the family members house. But it was via the route I bumped into a few old mates I'd not seen for years and it didn't take much convincing me to go for a pint.... 10 pints later I'm wobbling back FFS.

It's a total shit show. That's how most of my drinking happens. Then it makes me have to assess and fool proof stuff further for the next time. I accept I have a problem and have to do all the tricks like limiting money on me, avoiding certain places or areas. It still all goes wrong at times though.

Every day around 3-4 o clock, as I’m approaching the end of my work day or even if I’m at home on an off day, all my resolve to quit evaporates. I’m so determined and then something in my brain does a complete switch to use just about anything to justify picking up some “motivational” beer on the way home. Got a lot of laundry? Maybe I’ll drink then and get through it. Gotta put away dishes? Eh, I’ll start my “day 1” tomorrow then. I become unable to cope with the fact I’m going to go home, make dinner, watch TV then get in bed. I’d rather listen to music and drink and find “things” to do around the house. I have to break this daily cycle of justifying slowly killing myself. I was going to quit 8 weeks before a big international trip coming up, and I’m already down to it being 6 weeks away. I know I can do this. I think…

TLDR: I need some advice on how to resist deciding to drink in the evening as my resolve dissipates. The crushing realization that I’ll have a “boring” evening leads me to drink each day. Any thoughts on how to power through?

I’m on day 4 of no drinking. I have severe anxiety and have had that before drinking. I started using drinking as a crutch to not be so anxious and then noticed if I didn’t drink I was anxious, so it was just a vicious cycle. But I was and still am so anxious about the possibility of withdrawals that I didn’t want to stop. I had stopped drinking for about a week and then my birthday hit and I’ve been drinking nearly everyday since. Which has been about a month. I plan on staying sober for awhile to see if my anxiety improves.

I’ve noticed I can’t sleep, I’m very bored. I’ve been getting hot but not sweaty, it is insanely hot outside by me though so I’m not sure if it’s withdrawals or not. I had a headache yesterday. Other than those things I really can’t tell, I’ve been anxious the entire time and have had a couple panic attacks but that was also my normal before drinking. A lot of the withdrawal symptoms to me just sound like things that happen to me when I’m anxious already, I just can’t tell.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated, I just am so scared of Dt or seizures.

49 days ago I was admitted into ER for the second time in 2 months with severe withdrawals. My heart rate was over 180, my muscles were jerking involuntarily, I was confused, shivering, in debilitating panic. I nearly died that night.

My drinking had become so out of control without me even realising. I was drinking atleast 3 bottles of 13% wine every single day, even more on the weekends. I was killing myself slowly. My tolerance skyrocketed in such a short space of time, I’m still in disbelief how quickly everything went to crap.

These last 49 days have been nothing short of hell, but I’m finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I published the following on LinkedIn and wanted to share it with you.

For years I was a functional alcoholic.

Functional, because I was also an athlete.

I commuted by bike five days a week. Thirty-two kilometers a day. Three hundred meters of climbing. Then I drank. More than most people would believe.

I didn't know these two things were connected. I thought one was discipline and the other was a problem.

They were the same engine. The bike was burning something the bottle was feeding. As long as both ran, the house stood.

Then the pandemic came and took the bike.

One pillar gone. The whole load shifted to the other.

The drinking climbed to cover what the riding used to carry, and unbalanced, overloaded, it started doing damage it had never done before.

Somewhere in that year I went to a psychiatrist. I told her I thought I was becoming an alcoholic.

She told me not to worry. Enjoy your one or two glasses of wine a day.

It wasn't one or two glasses. It was more than a bottle.

Later I went to a different one. By then I'd made a plan. I wouldn't drink alone anymore. Only around people, only on weekends. I'd held it a week and I was proud of myself, and I told her so.

She listened. Then she said, that's interesting. Do you think it will work?

If you read this and recognize yourself in it, not the bike, the bottle:

Stopping was the best thing I ever did.

Not the hardest thing I survived.

The best thing I chose.

It's possible. And the person on the other side is glad in a way he couldn't have imagined.

I just took my first dump since monday, I've been hospitalized since tuesday. damn

Yooooo family. Hope we're all doing good this Friday. After being able to control my drinking for a good few months (was drinking about three glasses of wine on weekends, had stopped drinking during the week unless it was a very specific occasion) I'm struggling today. I struggled yesterday too, and got all anxious about it and in my head. I could use some encouragement to not drink, because I know if I break my pattern of sticking to Saturdays I'll just end up drinking every day again.

Please be kind!

I am /was in a newish relationship.
it’s been long distance after a brief fling a few months ago.
couple of weeks ago i travelled 4,000kms to stay with her for a while and see if things can work.
yesterday we had this huge fight, she told me to leave and i left. i came to a nearby town and stayed in a hostel.

when i got here i took a few pills ( valium and serequol ) that im proscribed and went to sleep. woke up a few hours later and had 36 missed calls and dozens of texts. starting angry then slowly moving to love bombing.
i said i wasn’t in the mood to talk and we would tomorrow ( today).

when i woke up she had sent one more text at 4am saying she got shit faced drunk and apologising for the calls. ( i haven’t listened to all the voice mails she left and probably won’t ).

one thing we connected on was that we were both recovering alcoholics with years of sobriety under our belt.

I don’t want to go back, i feel like my sobriety is at risk being with someone who is so unstable.

but i feel bad like i drove her to drink and night drive her to drink again if i say i can’t come back.

I avoid conflict and the initial fight started when i was expressing my need for a bit of space. i tried to say it as gently as possible and at first she took it ok but after a few monitors all hell broke loose.

i am ND and im not sure im good at expressing myself when feeling overwhelmed.

Not sure i have a question but any advice or even just writing here is helping me gather my thoughts.

thanks. all the best.

UPDATE.
she’s asked for my address to post stuff i left behind. so that makes the decision easier.
she is kinda blaming me or implying it’s my fault she drank. so that confirms my decision to leave it best for me.

thanks everyone.