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The two people ive known with BPD diagnosed loved it and did it all the time. One does it every day. I cant relate to this at all. When I smoke, I get extremely paranoid and my inner monologue is a harsh critic. Anything I say, I tell myself it was stupid and everyone else thought it was stupid. I also think everyone in the room hates me and just tolerates my presence because they have to. Its like playing russian roulette, because every once in a while its extremely pleasurable, but most the time its paranoia.

Im diagnosed bipolar and seeking bpd evaluation next week, so i already cant because the next day itll interfere with my meds and cause a mood swing (usually to depression).

Im level 1 ASD and suspecting strongly BPD (i see a therapist in a week). Do any of you guys have both? What has been your experience having both? Do you find they bleed together or can you tell distinctly which is which? Thx :)

Im new to all of this, so forgive me if this is ignorant. But the emptiness tends to get worse the less stimulation I have. If my SO isnt around, especially at night with nowhere to go be active, I feel such profound emptiness it like physically pains me.

Hi everyone. I am diagnosed level 1 autism, but now starting to investigate BPD with my therapist, and im beginning to challenge the autism diagnosis.

One evidence used for the autism diagnosis was presence of "meltdowns." However, im curious if you guys here have experienced similar. My biggest "meltdown," was on a bachelor trip to Nashville. I dont like being away from home, or my pets, but I thought id push through and have fun. Anyway, as soon as we got there, I felt dread. I began getting obsessive themes that I wouldnt make it home. I started getting paranoid that some people I barely knew on the trip were untrustworthy and might hurt me. I had to isolate many times in the bathroom to cry and pull my hair. It wasnt a panic attack. Ive had plenty of those, this was something very different.

I didnt tell anyone and made it through alright, but similar things have happened when im in similar scenarios. The odd thing is, this does *NOT* happen when my fiance is with me. We went all the way to Hawaii, nothing happened.