u/Ambitious-Lie-7162

Hii! I’m a 17 year old science student currently in Bangalore with hands on experience designing school projects, creating brand logos and have sold some of my original paintings and art work on Instagram. Since 2022 I’ve been building a solid portfolio of graphic design and visual content work, and I’m now looking for freelance social‑media management and design assignments.

I’d really appreciate some suggestions for where else i can apply, some recommendations or whatever you can help with. If you’re hiring or have leads, feel free to DM me I’ll gladly share my art work and discuss how I can help.

she’s 6 years older than me. i’m 17 and she’s 23. growing up our dad was extremely abusive but it died down as she grew up and started hitting him back. i remember he used to make weird comments about how her thighs looked and would constantly talk about her body inappropriately. he did the same to my mother for years which made her really envious towards my sister and i, but i don’t want to get into that rn.
the point is our father’s always been a fucking pervert and my sister grew up into being really insecure and sexualising herself from a very young age. she would post herself online wearing minimal clothing and i often walked in on her taking nudes.
i thought it was pretty normal growing up. she would be very cuddly and touchy, i think that’s just her love language. during the covid lockdown, when i was about 10-11 years old i started becoming distant as she would lash out constantly because of her abusive boyfriend. she’d hit me almost everyday and i had to take care of myself and my bruises on my own as our parents were away for work. then she’d get really touchy, to the point it was uncomfortable. she’d make comments about the “size” of my vagina. she still made me shower with her and would grope me as a “joke”. she’d kiss and lick me and would tell me she loves me more than anyone. we used to share a room as we could only afford to have an AC in one room. i woke up one night to her laying naked next to me. she was having facetime sex with her boyfriend. she’d always invite him over and have really loud sex with him with the door open.
whenever i’d ask her to move away from me and to stop touching me she’d lash out, cry and wail and throw things at me because i “don’t want to spend time” with her anymore. when i told our father about this he said i need to stop complaining so much and im just jealous of her. now that we’re older, she has a lot of male friends and boyfriends that she introduces me to. she lets them make inappropriate jokes about me and talk about how they’d fuck me if i wasn’t a minor. she always laughs about it.
i never thought about this much but i recently got diagnosed with CPTSD and started therapy. i don’t know how to bring it up with anyone.