Husband went to rehab
Hey everyone, I need to vent because I don’t have too many people to talk about this with because I don’t want to talk down on my husband to the people we love.
For a little backstory, my husband has been struggling with addiction forever. Started with gaming, porn and weed mostly as teenagers. After high school and trying to stop smoking weed, and he ended up drinking a lot. His dad was an alcoholic when he was young but has been sober for a lot of time now. We have a 2 year old boy, and these past 2 years he has pretty much been drinking every night.
Recently we were about to start house searching, he was sober even for a little bit and we have good savings. I was finally about to get me and my son on insurance through his job. A good one too. My son has been on state insurance and I have had no insurance since he was born. we have been in couples counseling and at our last meeting 2 weeks ago I talked about how scared I was of this all crashing down, because I knew it would. He wasn’t going to meetings and thought he could get sober on his own.
He picked up drinking again after a few weeks and we had some really bad fights, and he was fired from his job for constant lateness. He was hungover pretty much every day going into work. A few days later we decided he needed to go to rehab. This was Friday and he’s been there for 3 days now. The blackout/detox phase ends today and i don’t know how to handle it. Yesterday we had our first 10 minute call and it was fine, talked about mother’s day, which i’m so grateful for the people I have who checked on me and celebrated with me. But then he started being mean at the end of the call about the lighter we didn’t know we had to bring him for his cigarettes and the books he wanted me to bring. I ended the call early.
I am so mixed with emotions. I’m angry, I’m sad, I miss him, and i’m proud of him for going. and hopeful this goes well. but scared for the future and if sobriety will stick or even change things for the better.
For some reason i’ve been seeing tiktok’s recently of partners cheating in rehab too and that’s been sending me on a whole different spiral. I just am so pissed and feel like I am constantly being punished.
Oh he will also be missing my birthday in rehab lol. i know this isn’t about me, it’s about his recovery but right now i just don’t even know if i can talk to him because i don’t want to be angry with him. i want to be supportive and i do support him.
Sorry for the long post, and if anyone reads this. Thank you ❤️
TL;DR My husband went to rehab, leaving me and my 2 year old. Vent about a mix of emotions and overwhelm about him being there.