I really enjoy it. I don’t want another fucking addiction. Started as a way to cope with unrequited obsession for my new FP and I now want to do it everyday. I don’t think there are fellowships for self harm are there? Can’t afford therapy.
I’ve been sober 18 months, I had a full course of CBT and DBT. I split on someone yesterday and then burned the shit out of my arm.
I’m still doing AA. I’m eating sleeping and applying for jobs. But everyone is like “how can we use other tools / maybe you need more therapy” and honestly I’m just done. I cba. Maybe my motivation will come back eventually but I’m so tired. Anyone else get like this?