He says I'm in denial and just have guilt and I owe it to myself to admit my true feelings. He says that my body outed my true feelings.
I'm confused and torn and struggling. I'm finding it most difficult to explain the orgasm during the incident and the very sexual feelings after. Is my brain just confused and tricking my body?
My best friend's father forced himself on me. I said "no" many times and tried to fight him off during it. But confusing things happened to my body during it.
My thoughts and emotions are all over the place. I can't stop thinking about what happened but my anger seems to be getting replaced by confusing emotions and he's been trying to get in my head. He says that I'm in denial and just have guilt.
I'm confused and torn and struggling. Was I subconsciously attracted to him? Does that mean it wasn't rape? Anyone else figure out a way to deal with confusing emotions and thoughts and turn the page?
I really want to talk to someone about what happened but afraid to tell anyone for fear that it will get out which would really complicate a lot of relationships and things. Is there a truly anon resource for this kind of thing?