150 days gambling free but I can't hold the pressure any longer
**150 days ago** I lost around 30,000 euros, which doubled my original 30k loan — now I'm basically paying almost **1,000 euros a month** just for my gambling mistakes, and all of this in a country where nearly half the population doesn't even earn 1,000 euros gross. My only luck is a seemingly stable, well-paying job.. but the question is for how long. So I spend my days paralyzed by paranoia about what comes first.. whether I manage to pay off at least some of it before I can refinance and extend the loan to lower my monthly costs, or whether I lose my job and I'm simply done and have no idea what to do.
I have roughly 7.5 years of repayment left if I don't make any extra payments, and about 4 years if I manage to find some extra money each month.
My question tho:
**Does anyone have an unhinged tip on what to do?** Has anyone been in a similar situation and can advise me on how to ease the weight on your mind? There are days when it suffocates me completely, and normally I've even forgotten I'm addicted to gambling when I have to deal with this shit I caused myself.
Thank you so much for your answers brothers, may the force be with us