u/Ambitious_Topic_9827

I've been seeing a therapist at the cmht since last year. I've used up my allocation of sessions (30) and it's time to say goodbye. I'm devastated because it's my first experience of a consistently secure attachment and I'm crying like it's an immediate relative that's died. Maybe even more than I would for someone I was related to.

What happens if I don't attend the final session? I know why I'm doing it (to protect the therapist and myself from the sadness of the ending). He or she is under no illusion about how much I will miss them.

I have a gift for them I can leave with admin and I will write to pals so they get the feedback and their manager knows

Do I need to attend the final session? My fear is I get discharged from the cmht accidentally and obviously that isn't something I want. I go to a service user social group and would like to continue with that

Thanks for reading

I'm sorry for the flair, as I'm not a therapist. Id just really appreciate a therapist's perspective.

I have had 29 sessions of therapy with the NHS in secondary care. Next week is the final session and I'm devastated. I'm not risky, Ive just lived a life that has been profoundly sad at times and often without a secure base. This is the first time I've attached to anyone in over a decade apart from my two gorgeous nieces and I don't think I'm strong enough to go along with the goodbye session.

I have a gift for her and it would mean a lot to me if she accepts it. It's inexpensive but personally chosen. What happens if I leave the gift with the CMHT and avoid the final session? And yes, I know I'm reverting to type and using avoidance to avoid triggering the feeling of being abandoned and also to want to parent her and protect her from a sad ending.

I'm going to write to pals so she will be under no illusion of how incredible she is

NGL, I just went from fear to despair to relief in the space of a minute.