feeling invisible and completely lost at 21, someone please tell me it gets better
lately it feels like everyone in my life is just... drifting. my sister is at that age where she has her own thing going on and doesn't really check in anymore. my parents create so much tension at home and honestly just make me feel bad about myself a lot. i can't move out rn mostly bc of them and for financial reasons so i'm just stuck in an environment that lowkey drains everything out of me.
friend situation is not it either. everyone seems to have their "main people" and i'm just not that for anyone?? i feel like i have to beg to make plans and it's embarrassing honestly. i have my bf, the one person i can fully rely on and i hate how much i lean on him, it's not fair to him. i'm a 21F senior in college and i've tried the whole joining clubs thing and it just hasn't clicked. idk how people make friends at this stage it feels impossible
job hunting is also going terribly and it's making me feel so dumb and behind even though i know some of it is out of my control. still hurts tho
i just feel stuck in literally every direction. what do i do