I think I’m slowly making a comeback
Duders, I’m a bit overwhelmed but in a good way. I was hung up on a woman for a while, but over the weekend I realized feelings I had for her simply weren’t shared. It was a bummer. So I downloaded a dating app.
I had a long drive home, and likes kept popping up. Some probably spam, some not interested in, but where I live feels even more isolating because women near me are either scarce or not interested in me.
I’m currently in a conversation with a marine biologist. WTH is happening? Even if this goes nowhere, this is making me feel like people do notice me - even if it’s on some shitty app. Even if it’s all artificial. I know this, hate this, but still feel better about myself because of it. Am I just lonely, or seeking attention too hard? I feel like an immature idiot and also somewhat cautiously confident.
I’m a mess, aren’t I?
Meal: tortellini with meatballs