31M and I don’t know what my new purpose should be
I don’t use reddit at all so may be the wrong forum but I’m stuck so here we go.
When I graduated college I met a girl I loved more than anyone i’ve ever been with and we had it great. I was working small jobs trying to get by and she was still in school but we made it work. We moved in together and had the ring picked out. Then there was a pregnancy scare and she left because I couldn’t provide for a family with my income at the time and I wasn’t going straight to the top anytime soon. She also got rid of the baby and no I didn’t get any say in that decision either. Just one day came home to an empty apartment and a ring on the counter.
Haven’t heard a word from her since and that was almost 10 years ago.
After sulking for a bit I decided I would go all out on my career and show her I could do it and maybe she’d see or hear about it. Idk it wasn’t a great plan but the goal was to make at least 100k by the time I turned 30.
In the last 10 years I went from being a barback to a customer service rep to analyst to a role where i’m making over 100k. So yeah I did it. I have the luxury apartment and cars and honestly more $ than I know what to do with. That sounds douchey but i’m a pretty simple guy. Hamburger helper is delicious and you can’t convince me i’m wrong.
I guess my “confession” is that I did all that and spent all this time going for that goal thinking it would change everything but it didn’t and I don’t really know what to do now. I haven’t seriously dated in years and I kinda don’t really even want to anymore. I’m 6’4 (if that matters) and I could date if I wanted to do but there really isn’t any motivation to and there is no way for me to tell the first girl I finally did it so what now?