u/AndrewLyssunov

You know, when someone talks about sex outside of an explicitly sexual connotation — it always throws me off.

It gets even more jarring when people — who are clearly not horny — start basing their goals on achieving sex, as if it's something that has worth in itself — and not just a nuisance that gets in the way of other activities.

It's a bit like saying "I really REALLY want to use the bathroom in a few hours!". I mean, if you want to go, then go now. How do you know if you would want to use it in a few hours? It just sounds funny.

To me, it's like a bodily function that only matters when it arises — as soon as it's dealt with, the thought never even crosses my mind.

If you're horny, can you not just masturbate and go about your day?

I view myself as straight — however — clearly their sexuality transcends the normal bodily desires and into the normal, everyday goals of their existence.

Surely, sex can't be that interesting? :/

0.8% incidence rate is low, but that still means millions of people have it. I would presume there is a much higher rate of SzPD among academics, mathematicians, writers etc.

I can think of Kafka and Perelman as probable examples.

Who else do you think is one and why?

I've read time and time again about how social isolation seemingly destroys the inner psychological state of the average person — however — I find it hard to believe that this would apply to me.

I never get lonely and don't even understand what it feels like. As long as I know I am safe then there is nothing to worry about. Simply being around others is not a need in itself, but only a consequence of me having a requirement for something else, e.g. food, shelter, security. If those needs are met — then I'm just chilling and having a good time.

Sure, sometimes I like to share my opinion with others — like I am now — but if I can't do that then it's cool too. I would be hard pressed to call this something that results in me feeling any sort of distress — quite the opposite actually.

Ultimately, I feel that we need to take a grain of salt with all scientific studies vis-à-vis the average — we truly are that different.

I’ve tried drinking many times — got up to a BAC of 0.2.

Sure, my speech gets slurred and I feel wobbly, but at no point does my subjective experience improve nor do I feel better.

I find it hard to believe that peoples’ personality changes when they drink, or that they lose “control” when they do, as from my experience I just get a headache.

My theory is that I already feel good at baseline, so drinking doesn’t do anything. It’s strange though because my parents often get drunk from the same things I drink (chiefly, water kefir, a fermented beverage that can get quite alcoholic)

I suspect this is due to my anhedonia, but that strangely this doesn’t seem to apply for other schizoids, who react normally to alcohol.

Any ideas?

I noticed that often neurotypicals feel distressed after masturbating, despite on paper not being horny anymore.

Are they not satisfied by the sexual release?

I learned over the years that watching porn and masturbation is something that is preferably to be avoided. However, I don't actually feel inherently bad after the event, it's just something that I was conditioned to perceive as bad due to the constant barrage of talk about it.

This became more clear to me as I came to the realization that stories of "depression", "demotivation", "sadness" etc. after jerking off don't actually apply to me.

Sure, I am not longer horny after the fact, but isn't that the point? To be honest, I feel quite good after — I am clear headed and am free to do whatever I want.

Do schizoids and neurotypicals have different goals vis-à-vis sex?

I'm suspecting we have different neurological pathways — for example, I've heard of sex being classified as a dopaminergic activity, despite the fact that I can clearly tell from my own subjective experience that the motivation to have sex and the motivation to engage in dopamine activity have absolutely no overlap — it feels different in my brain, and I certainly do not feel less inclined to do anything after orgasm more than prior to it.

It's bizarre that I am only now discovering that not everybody feels this way.

I can't imagine jerking off after the fact and still craving something after. That doesn't sound pleasant.

What are your thoughts on this matter?