Don’t know if I want to
But I know I should, I’ve been a daily smoker for the past 12 years except for the one year break i took a few years ago, and the one week break i had a month ago.
I can’t say I regret or have wasted my earlier years because I really have enjoyed my life, the experiences (Bad/Good) and the people I have had the pleasure of being around.
I’ve been living off my saving for a couple months now since my last job had to close down, and looking for a new job has kind of put me in an existential crisis. And the current job market isn’t helping lol
I need to do more. I haven’t been complacent with my life but I know I have not put in the effort, work or anything to get my life to a place I can be proud of, or that my family can be proud of.
I can’t blame the weed either, I take full responsibility for my life and my actions and I am laying in the bed I have made for myself. As much as I actually enjoy it, I know it’s time for me to move on to a sober life. I just hope I can find comfort and some happiness in a sober life.
I’ve mapped out a path for myself for the next few years towards a real goal and I am committed to not letting any more time pass me by.