I just want to share something because I feel really heavy inside. I (F30) in an FWB with a man (M37) who just got divorced and has a kid. I fell in love with him, but I still agreed to that type of relationship because the only thing I wanted was to be with him. I pretend that I only want something casual and chill with him, even though I don’t really enjoy the sexual part.
I mean… I could listen to him all day, or basically just hear him laugh.
He asked me if I’m okay with the fact that he doesn’t have feelings for me, and I pretend that I don’t love him either — I just say it’s some positive feeling.
We agreed on an exclusive FWB and we still set up our meetings in advance, not like booty calls. I thought at least we still had the “friends” part. But it feels like he doesn’t even want that part anymore, and now I just feel like I was a hookup or a fuck buddy.
I know I’m stupid for letting myself fall this deep, and I know it’s my fault for agreeing to something that hurt me. But ... has anyone ever had an FWB turn into something serious?