u/Anjyy675

I'm 19f, I have been in limerence over a guy for more than 2 years now, now I'm not even sure if it started out as a crush, we never actually spoke, we were never friends either, he was just a classmate that was really smart, he basically had good traits that I admired a lot, but I was really insecure and weird at that time, so we didnt even speak.

There was a girl who was much better than me at everything, she was pretty, smart and funny, they were friends and I'm pretty sure everyone thought they liked each other because they were around each other most of the time, I haven't seen this guy in two years, but he never left my mind, I definitely fantasized a lot, it is different than what people describe, I don't really see home as someone who would solve my problems, he's just that kind of guy who is really disciplined, it also wasn't black and white thinking like not noticing red flags, I didn't obsessed over little interactions, I just watched him from afar,

Now I really hate myself for being in limerence, sometimes it weighs on my mind like I'm about to burst into tears, I have never tried to stalk him on socials when we were at school, but I recently did stalk him on a social platform and he's doing really well, like I saw the potential and he exceeded expectations, I just want to stop feeling like this, like does it ever stop, I also haven't had any romantic interests since that time, only attractions , but emotionally I can't develop interest on anyone, I know if I see home again, I would deffo develop another crush on him, but I really hate it. Cos I'm not even good enough for him. Am I just bored, how did you all get over it, did therapy help at all?

Hello, I have been on a gap year for almost 2 years now, I have been working as an healthcare assistant for a year now, I wanted to stusy an allied health course in university but I found out that it will be too expensive for me as i would be considered an international student, i also dont meet the criteria for many scholarships, working in the health sector has made me hate it, i dont have an interest for anything anymore, i could consider becoming a doctor but my gfrades arent that good and it would be a really long time with no guarantee that i would even get accepted. I am not happy with the way things are at the moment, It would be up to 2 years before i am eligible for home fees, Im looking for a career change but i dont really know where to start or what to do?

I also have an offer at Loughborough University for a stem course but it's too expensive and I'm too broke😂

Could there be any qualification that i can get within this time that wont break the bank, I have more than five thousand punds so im willing to pay that much, just to save the time before i can go to Uni, and I would be a mature student at that time, I have considered studying abroad but it is not worth the sacrifice since I have been here for almost five years now, Is there any career that dosent require a degree that you would recommend, or is there anything I should be doing right now if I am going to be a mature student as some universities wont accept qualifications thats been longer than 3 years. Pls dont judge, I dont really know if i expressed my situation well. Thanks