Nothing left but bills
On Wednesday it will be two weeks since I had to say goodbye to my Heart-&-Soul-Boy Pino.
I took him and his brother Rufus in, after my Dad had passed earlier that year, when they were 10 weeks old. Rufus went missing in 2019 and I was never able to find him.
Since he was a kitten, he was always dealing with something. FORL which led to him having to have all his teeth pulled at 1 year old. Losing his fur. Breaking his paw. Chronic kidney insufficiency. A bad liver. Last year I thought that I would lose him, but he pulled through. Then again in December, but once again he pulled through. Then 1,5 months ago, he had a growth on his eye, which meant another surgery. Not too bad, all went well and I took a coule off days off from work, to take care of him and one of my other cats, who had also had a smaller surgery.
On Saturday he broke his leg. Emergency surgery. I took him home on Monday and I already thought that something was wrong, but put it down to him being in pain. Tuesday evening we were back at the hospital. He was anemic. There was free fluid in his abdomen and the bllodwork showed, that his liver was failing. He didn't want to go and I couldn't say the words. He stayed at the hospital over night, got a blood transfusion and my SIL took me to the hospital. He wasn't improving. His mind wanted to fight, but his body was too weak. We were sitting by the window,I was cuddling him, telling him how much I love him. He fell asleep in my arms.
I spend almost a week in bed, trying not to see his bowl, the care station I'd put together for him in the living room, the pillow on my desk, where he would sleep and snore, while I worked. Crying, screaming, missing him. My cousin and SIL came by to help me put his things away. I was able to feed my other cats and cuddled with them, but Pino took a big piece of my heart with him.
I feel better now. At least I can laugh abd feel it. But whenever I talk about him I start to shake and have to fight to hold back the tears.
The bill from the hospital arrived on Saturday. A huge bill and he is not here anymore.