u/Annejiee

Hi I’m 30F, I am currently single who had 1 ex bf. God gave me the man who I am praying for but we ended breaking up. After that breakup I am afraid to pray for a partner again but God knows, I wanted a simple and complete family.

I had great sins before that is why I think this is the consequence why I am keep on falling into failed relationships.

When I think of it, my desire is very simple. But how come it is so hard to attain?

I am praying that God would help me accept that I might be living alone. But as of now, everytime I see a family I am genuinely happy. But I can’t deny that there’s a hint of hurt and jealousy that sometimes it would give me unexpected tears.

Is my mind and heart is wrong? Or right?

Have you ever dreamt if your ex? How do you feel after? We broke up 2yrs ago and I dont think of him anymore. But why?? 1st yr I dreamt of him and on 2nd yr it happened again. Why??