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I was struggling with this for a while. I recently came back to the Lord after spending years away and while I was away I started dating this girl. I loved her, but after returning to Christ, being around her just made me feel odd. I really struggled with it for so long and I didn’t know what to do because I didn’t want to hurt her but I just felt off about the whole thing.

Today I finally broke up with her. I feel like a weight has been lifted. I prayed about it for so long and I know what the Lord was leading me to do.

I just don’t have anyone to talk to about it so I thought here would be a good place. My family doesn’t follow Christ like I do (something I am working on) and they just don’t understand why we broke up. I guess I just wanted to say it to people who understood and let it be real. I turned away from sin today and I am really proud of myself and I want to shout it from the rooftop!

Right now, I’m afraid of everything. I haven’t welcomed Jesus into my heart; I don’t know how to repent, and the times I thought I had repented were probably just because I was afraid of losing God and worried about the consequences. Right now, I’m afraid of what’s happening in the world. My family and I stopped going to church a long time ago, and when I started reading the Bible and got to the Book of Revelation, I came across what would happen before Jesus returns—the so-called “birth pangs”—and I’m afraid that will happen. I fear for myself and my family, because I know we don’t have God in our lives, and I know that a life with God isn’t easy. Sometimes I start to think and doubt that the Holy Spirit dwells in me, that Jesus dwells in me; I feel like I won’t be able to—really—something tells me I’m not chosen for anything and that I’m in hell, I’m afraid I’m deceiving myself and that when the day comes, I’ll go to hell for all eternity, and what hurts me the most is my family; there’s an enormous fear inside me that I don’t think will ever leave me. Honestly, when I tell you that I’ve tried several times to draw closer to God, but I can’t do it—I don’t feel anything—it’s as if God were ignoring me. I feel like I won’t be able to—really. Many people give themselves to God as if it were nothing, but I can’t; it’s as if I weren’t chosen for anything. I see that it's easy for them, but not for me. There was a time when I thought I was truly following Jesus, but I realized I was fooling myself and was only acting out of fear, and I guess that's what holds me back—the thought that I'm fooling myself

I feel guilty. A girl asked me to show her my private parts on a video call, and I did it, but fortunately, the call glitched out before things could go any further. I immediately felt so guilty about what was about to happen. I’m just a teenager; I never would have ended up in this situation if I hadn't accidentally discovered pornography as a child (I was checking my Google history and clicked a link by mistake). For a long time, I’ve been trying to quit this disgusting habit I never wanted to get into. I feel incredibly guilty—more than usual—and even though I know God can forgive me, I feel terrible. I just want to do normal teenage things. Lately, I’ve wanted to pursue the goal that makes me feel close to God and what I believe is my purpose: becoming a writer and comic book artist. I also want to go to Japan—I was even learning Japanese. I feel so awful. That’s what I should be doing. I used to be ashamed of my goal until I felt that God was proud of me and was the only one supporting me (that’s how I felt when reading His word, since others mocked my ambitions). I feel like I’ve ruined that closeness I had with God. I just want to keep acting like what I am—a teenager, not a monster. I want to be with God, but I’ve pushed Him away. I’m glad and grateful there was a glitch, but the guilt remains. I know I just need to repent, but how many times have I done that already? I feel like I won't be able to stop sinning; I don't want to keep sinning, yet I keep falling. I’m afraid, and I don’t want to let God down again.

You can probably guess this is about myself. This is one of the areas of my life Christ is working through right now. I never lived an openly gay lifestyle, I've told my Christian parents about this struggle as a teenager, have been wrestling with it and praying about it ever since, constantly giving it to Christ. I've fallen many times but my sin has never been my identity and I know the Lord is in the process of renewing me every day.

I don't know if the Lord's will is to ever remove this broken attraction from me completely or make me stay single so I can serve Him in that. But lately, I've just been wanting a life partner. Someone to bear burdens with, hangout with, be my best friend. I've always had strong emotional and romantic feelings for women, just no lust. If anything, I feel more asexual these days but still the same strong urges for intimacy - to care for someone and be cared for, walk in our faith journey together, be vulnerable with.

I guess I'm wondering if I should refrain from finding a partner until I'm completely healed (will I ever be?) or if there are women in the faith out there who can accept that this is a part of me Christ is working through right now. I don't know.

Prayers appreciated.

I usually don't post much about my personal life, but I genuinely have nobody to talk to.

Lately, I feel like I've really let myself go. I've allowed the world to influence me into making decisions I know I shouldn't be making. I'm lusting again. I'm smoking. I'm watching things I shouldn't be watching. I'm cursing again, which is something I usually don't do, and I'm even starting to curse at people. I'm also starting to show off my body more because I want the wrong kind of attention.

I genuinely feel so lost. I haven't read my Bible in months. I'm doing things I've never done before, and I feel completely overwhelmed.

I truly feel like God won't accept me back into His arms, even though I know that's what He says He will do. I feel like I don't deserve to talk to Him. I feel like I don't deserve His love.

I just feel so lonely, and I genuinely don't know what to do anymore. I have nobody to talk to, and I feel like I'm completely lost.

I've never really had the best life since I was a kid growing up. I remember looking around and seeing others in stable, loving families and asked God, why couldn't I have that too? Why was I hated from others just for existing? Why are some people subject to being born in good countries while others aren't? Why the gap between poverty and wealth? Suffering and wellbeing? Why do a lot of evil people live long and happy while a lot of innocent people suffer to an extreme extent? I've been asking myself similar questions for as long as I can remember. Recently, everything got much worse for me and I've been asking myself: "What did I do to deserve all of this? I'm not perfect, but don't I deserve to be treated like a human too?" and all the suffering is making me feel hopeless that God doesn't care about us, or, some of us at least. I then decided to read the book of Job to find an answer to all the evil and suffering that exists on earth and found nothing that could satisfy my question. Instead, I got even more sad that Job went through all of that for no reason and never ended up getting an answer. He did get blessed in the end which is good, but does that make the suffering he went through right? Does that answer the question why many people in the world don't have a similar outcome in the end and instead end up dying or suffering for the rest of their life? No.

My take away from Job: You'll never get an actual answer to the probem, so it's up to you to decide to either trust God to guide you through your life and the wavering storms that lie ahead, even when he doesn't seem to care, or not believe in him anymore.

And this has been making me doubt the morality of God. I believe God exists because of my own life experiences and my personal outlook on the universe and all it's components, but I can't believe that he isn't evil and loves us. I really do think he wants to see some of us suffer just for his enjoyment, and I'm at the edge of becoming an atheist just because of this. Do I even count as a christian if I believe he's evil? I don't know. I've already digged deep into multiple arguments like the free will argument, acknowledging the power of a higher being through suffering and so on and so forth. None of the arguments have satisfied me, not because they don't have some thought behind them, but rather because they aren't objective arguments. If God himself didn't reveal the true reason as to why we suffer, who can? None of us.

This also made me realize why a lot of atheists don't believe in a higher power. Not all of them of course, but a lot either can't accept that he's good or he doesn't exist because of how wack the world is. It's gut-wrenching what some people go through in silence.

The only person that can fully restore someone's faith in God, is God himself. No one else. Just God. But only if he wants to.

I don't know if I can love God anymore, I don't know if he loves me, I don't know, I don't know.

I know I won’t hear “well done my good and faithful servant” but I just want to get into heaven and forget everything about Earth and my time living. I’ve messed up everything. I will stand before God and admit it. I just don’t want for this all to end and wind up in hell for eternity for not fulfilling God’s plan for my life.

Everywhere I look I just see people laughing about Christianity and mocking God and his followers and i often tell myself but Jesus said we would be hated but I can't help but feel sad and like I can't share my beliefs with anyone anymore because they will either laugh or mock etc. This in particular is very bad for new Christians who recently converted and could potentially feel insecure about it.

I never understood this at all. God is the one who created me and knew every choice that I would ever create since the beginning of time even though I didn't know it. For example, God knows every single choice that I will act on tomorrow. He supposedly knows whether I will commit a sinful act or not. If I do something bad, he already knew beforehand anyway and I had absolutely no choice and he created me. So why would he judge me and condemn me for something that I had no control of whatsoever at all? He basically created me and damned me for a choice that I couldn't choose otherwise. Someone please explain this and make it make sense to me because it really doesn't at all.

Thoughts on this? This phrase “we all DESERVE Hell” is nowhere in the Bible. It discusses the Earning of wages, but that is Earning, not Deserving.

Am I making a distinction without a difference here? Thoughts? This phrase seems like one of those lazy Christianese phrases that is often used unconsciously, and I think it’s damaging to our relationship with Christ. Not to deny the reality of sin or Hell, but when it seems to indicate that omniscient God creates us deserving of Hell by default…something’s amiss. Or am I off in la-la land?

I am Christian and married with 3 children already with the same man. I feel shame to say that I have had a previous abortion before, I said I would not do it again. I have taken all the precautions to not get pregnant and my husband underwent the vasectomy surgery.

A week after that, I discovered I am pregnant again. Now, I am in an internal battle with myself:
- What does God mean with this pregnancy?
- Is it a sin to get an abortion if three children is sufficient?

I don’t know what to do and am running to here for advice since I cannot speak with family about this. My husband supports whatever decision, but I am looking only at the negative side of both choices I have.

Hi everyone. I just wanted to throw this out here and ask if anyone else has been inundated with endtimes doom and gloom messages. It's everywhere. I get it irl from family and online too because my feed is full of that stuff. And things are looking exceptionally bleak, regardless of whether you're an atheist or someone following the biblical Armageddon calender to a T. I don't know what to make of much of the Bible still, I'm still working on my faith but it's difficult when resentment against God creeps in. I didn't ask to be here.

You have people like Elon Musk and his ilk talking about how the world as we know it is going to irrevocably change in the next decade if not sooner based on the AI boom. The cost of living keeps rising. There's new news everyday of poisons being discovered in food and regular use items. The wars currently going on and looming in the near future aren't easing up. Every single day there's horrific news about Christians being killed, pain and suffering of innocent people, evil just unceasingly marching forward and it's just overwhelming. I don't think we were ever supposed to have access to all of this information and I feel sick because of it. Then there's the fear mongering Christians who make everything worse when you already feel set adrift.

Stuff like this doesn't help when you're already barely scraping by. Now you have to worry and fear that you'll have to watch your loved ones slowly starve to death or be hunted down by whatever is coming. And then there's mourning the lfie I wished I could had. Getting married and maybe having a child which I will never do now because what is the point. What will the world even look like when that kid is grown? I'm just struggling not to hate God or question his existance altogether. I don't see the point of any of this and it makes it impossible for me to enjoy even the day to day stuff.

I sometimes wish I'd been born an animal or an insect or something instead of a person that has to live through this. If I'd had some kind of encounter with God before to make it worth it, it would help. But I'm attempting to white-knuckle my faith right now and its so damn hard.

I feel afraid I've commited the actual biblical definition of blasphemy of the holy spirit. Like the one from Mark 3:29 because I was panicking that I might have accidentally did it and I literally did it on purpose. God knows I'd never attribute his miracles to Satan he knows my intentions what do I do im afraid

Hello everyone, I just want to share my experience and ask about the meaning of this somewhat miraculous event that happened days ago.

It was around 4-5PM when I was done praying the Rosary and I went on to repeat the jesus prayer and adore him on the crucifix. I was praying to Him, to forgive me all my sins, and suddenly around 3-5 minutes, His head was moving left and right in agony for a few seconds. I do not know if it was truly His head moving around or if it was me tweaking cause of staring at him the whole prayer session. But either way, I think it's the Lord's expression of his mercy, the agony he experienced and the Love He poured unto us.

I have never shared this experience to anyone except now. If You have certain interpretations of explanations, Feel free to say them, for I'm open to other's opinions.

Godbless!

According to the Quran, Jesus was a Prophet, child of virgin birth and chosen man to save souls on Judgement Day.

However, it claims he was not the Son of God, saying God cannot have children or be someone's chid. It also purports that he was taken straight to heaven instead of being crucified.

So what do you think?

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We are one of the fastest growing Christian churches on earth, particularly in the global south. We are one of the most diverse churches- my church in Denver, Colorado has similar demographics to the city around me. About 45% Hispanic, 40% White, 15% Black. Can you Mainline folks say the same?

We don't just help the poor, we ARE the poor. Not me personally, I admit, but many of my fellow church members are homeless, living in shelters. We have regular bus service to these shelters and help people go grocery shopping and to appointments. Many of my best friends in this church are ex-gang members or were addicted (like myself) and this church turned their lives around. Being part of this church was the final nail in the coffin for many of my remaining sins.

So why all the hate? We love Jesus with all of our hearts, our souls, and our understanding, and we spread this love to places most people would be afraid to set foot in. We don't have a "holier than thou" attitude and understand that our style of worship isn't for everyone.

I hope some of you can open your minds a bit.

There is a subtle trap in modern religious culture that often gets overlooked: the obsessed drive to fit every single aspect of our lives into a neat, systematic definition of being "Biblical."

​Religious systems demand compliance to a set of rules, interpretations, and strict boxes. But when you look closely at the life of Jesus, He constantly shattered the rigid religious expectations of His time. The Pharisees and religious leaders ultimately rejected and crucified Him because He did not fit their human interpretations or their neat picture of who the Messiah ought to be.

​Jesus didn't come to fit into a system. He came to do the will of the Father and to be pleasing to Him.

​When we focus solely on conforming to institutional religious expectations, we risk replacing a living relationship with a mechanical checklist. True discipleship isn't about fitting into a human-made mold; it is about absolute obedience to a living Savior through the power of the Holy Spirit.

​Jesus described what a Spirit-led disciple looks like:

​"The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit."

John 3:8

​A true follower of Christ moves when He says move and acts when He says act. You cannot fit a Spirit-filled believer into a neat human box because they are not serving the expectations of men they are serving the Master.

​The early apostles understood that our primary goal isn't legalistic compliance to satisfy religious critics, but a total devotion to pleasing God in every action:

Galatians 1:10

​"For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ."

Romans 8:14

​"For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God."

​Focus on Relationship, Not Just Rules: Doing things simply to look "religiously correct" to those around you means nothing if your heart is far from direct obedience to God.

​Follow the Prompting of the Spirit: A real disciple listens for the voice of Jesus and goes where He leads, even when it confuses religious traditionalists.

This is very embarrassing but for the past year and a half I've fallen into using chat gpt and other AI which I feel has neglected my prayer life. I started off using it for work and now I use it if I feel anxious, sad, or want to vent. I'm realizing how unhealthy this all is and want to return to going to God for these struggles. I feel like it's so addictive. Curious if anyone else has navigated this and what has worked for you to ween yourself off?

This year has been hard, lost my dog and was let go from my job in the same week, been looking for jobs for months now, nothing but rejections.Two medical emergencies that I'm still paying off slowly. And the past few years has been hard too, I've lost friendships and relationships, I have no close friends anymore.I tried to be positive and remind myself that God is good and He will make a way and He will provide. I worked hard, But I feel like I'm losing more than I win. Like I'm working towards nothingness. I even asked God to remove the desire and hope towards my dream career so I can let go and get a new start, but somehow he made it stronger, but also everything feels impossible and intangible. Is God is punishing me or testing me? but I'm lost and losing hope...

I’m 24f and earlier this year I lost my faith permanently after struggling with it my entire life. It felt easier. I grew up in a very christian family that was also very abusive. I went through childhood trauma so bad that my siblings and I had to be taken away from our mom and separated to live with different family members that continued to be abusive. It’s made for a very difficult life in general where I went through things I genuinely wouldn’t wish on anyone, even after leaving home. I’m at a point where I’m not really seeing the value in my future and in my life. I’ve hit a wall, and I’m searching for any reason at this point to keep going. I went through sxual harassment at my last job so bad that I quit because I was getting blamed for it by my manager and HR and now I’m struggling financially without parents to support me. I want to know if there’s really something out there looking out for me, I really do.