I feel like giving up
This year has been hard, lost my dog and was let go from my job in the same week, been looking for jobs for months now, nothing but rejections.Two medical emergencies that I'm still paying off slowly. And the past few years has been hard too, I've lost friendships and relationships, I have no close friends anymore.I tried to be positive and remind myself that God is good and He will make a way and He will provide. I worked hard, But I feel like I'm losing more than I win. Like I'm working towards nothingness. I even asked God to remove the desire and hope towards my dream career so I can let go and get a new start, but somehow he made it stronger, but also everything feels impossible and intangible. Is God is punishing me or testing me? but I'm lost and losing hope...