Mother's Day Greeting
First and foremost, happy mother's Day to those fellow estranged children who have little ones of their own.
13 years of becoming estranged, 10 years since I sent my last message directly to my own mother. Just a simple, Happy mother's Day, both in the subject line and in the message. I didn't even sign my name, but sent from the old email I used in my old life when they were still present.
I don't know why I sent it exactly. I still hate her. She still hates me. But I did it anyway. Maybe because of survivals guilt, a conversation topic my husband and I were having after a day date out in the city with just me and him.
I don't expect an answer from her. I don't expect a greeting from anyone from that side of the family tbh.
I just did it for my own peace.
Did it to feel like I'm not horrible person.
Did it to say, "I still kinda did my part" when family members urge me to "just try to keep in touch. Keep sending birthday greetings, mother's day greetings, any kind of relevant greeting."
I don't know what I'm expecting out of this honestly. Just needed to vent and get this off my chest before it settled in my brain and ate up my whole day.