u/AnnualRoof7878

Okay so a while ago I helped move my best friend from my hometown to a new city I was living in I got us a huge townhouse and got her a job we also lived with another friend of mine ( him and I started hooking up he was extremely emotionally abusive to me ) and we all agreed he wasn’t going to resign with us it caused a lot of tension between me and her but once he moved out it got a little better I will say living with her was extremely hard like tip toeing around when she was in a bad mood constantly reading my emotions she can get pretty mean sometimes she’s very aggressive and I’m not so that was hard for me to handle and I’d seclude myself sometimes come to when we needed a new roommate she found someone on Facebook I wasn’t okay with it we got in a huge fight and she asked me to move out once she found out I had a savings so now I live alone I haven’t talked to her in a while but she recently reached out we were gunna meet for coffee but we kept canceling I do miss her a lot and it felt sometimes she was the only person who understoood me living together wasn’t the best like if I did want to date people she would be mad if the came over I was judged a lot we talked about it nothing changed I was in a really bad mental space for 3 yrs living there constantly changing medications divorce and two abusive relationships I lost my job it was a lot sometimes I felt like I was living with my mom but times passed and I’m not angry anymore but I don’t know if it’s worth rekindling we were like sisters and it’s weird that I can’t really see a lot of my friends anymore bc she’s friends with them and we try to avoid each other I don’t think I want to be best friends again but at least friends we use to do so much together I’ve grown a lot since moving out I know I’ve changed a lot but I don’t know where I’m going with this I understand where I went wrong in things and I do feel bad but I don’t think she thinks she did anything wrong she’s never even apologized more so “ sorry if you hate me “ is it worth it even trying to be friends again or am I missing a lesson