Glad I found this
I've been trying desperately for a good few years now to actually target my issue of limerence as its something I've always dealt with. I never really got taught how to love properly directly or indirectly. My parents and pop cultrue/media did a terrible job showing what love is supposed to be so all I know is obssesion. My current "LO" I guess is a woman from my church that I just cant shake out of my head. I know I can't/shouldn't be with her considering I'm a newer Christian and I've just been broken to millions of pieces in so many ways throughout my 24 years of life now. I even go back in forth "knowing" I dont want to marry and then thinking about her. Even if I do end up marrying I have such a ridiculous amount of progress I need to make in life and in my walk with God it feels debilitating. It's something I've been praying a lot about but finding this sub and seeing your testimonies has helped. Reminds me of my 8 months in AA almost. I don't want to feel guilty and ashamed anymore over some woman that doesn't even think about me much less fits into my plans and that I never see. I think she moved away somewhere which helps. I'll stick around awhile and keep reading your testimonies. Any prayers would help greatly too.