Trigger-y Experience or Actual Risk? Touching things someone with HIV touched when have dry, irritated hands
Had trigger-y experience—public event, buffet style appetizers and drinks, etc. And met someone there who mentioned being part of an HIV clinical trial (ran out before hearing if he actually had HIV). Naturally my mind went to dark places of if I have cuts on my dry hands and lips (from washing so often) and if we touched the same utensils I could be exposed, etc. And logically I know that’s not how it’s transmitted (excluding some theoretical freak experience), but I had been trying to do better and this set me back so badly. I know I could get post exposure prophylactic but since this is not considered an exposure event that would just reinforce cycle and I’d freak out about exposures at the clinic.
Tl:dr triggered by someone possibly with HIV at event with public drink stations, buffet style food when I have dry hands. Is this PEP warranted?
(P.s. I am aware reassurance seeking is not ideal for anxiety, but… would appreciate some support.)