11 days in and I'm terrified of the withdrawal... I don't want to do this alone
Can't believe it's even got to this point, but as I'm 29 years old with a business I really don't have any friends and not a single person in my family knows, so I'm fighting this battle completely alone and could use some redditors to help me feel a bit less pathetic.
7oh has been my downfall, truthfully, in every single aspect of my life. January 1st, 2025 I started the carnivore diet. I stayed completely committed. Not a single cheat meal.. no drugs. Got to July 2025 and had lost 76lbs at this point.
Blood pressure evened out. Heart rate lowered. 13 blood improvement (I got bloodwork right before starting and then again in July to compare). Good cholesterol went up, bad cholesterol went down. I was thriving. Laser focused.. multi tasking. Talkative. Social. Confident..
After the weight loss I started tracking my protein intake while staying in ketosis. Problem is, when you are taking in protein but your glycogen is depleted and you have no fiber.. your stool becomes very hard. Brick like. I went to the bathroom one time. Pushed too hard. Came out like a brick.. screaming pain. Developed internal hemorrhoids.
This led to me immediately dropping the diet in hopes it would help alleviate my stool pains with softer ones. This agonizing pain lasted 5-6 months.. which I then found 7oh and took it once.. I'll never forget the euphoria I got that day. Kept it in my pockets and went down an 11 month long 7o journey. I had stopped once in the past for 30 days.. picked it right back up.
Fast forward now I've been 60 days clean, and broke that sobriety on September 23rd, and it's now August 4th. This means I'm 11 days in.. but I no longer have the helper substance that got me through the first time.
I'm terrified of going through the no sleep for a week, hot flashes, restless legs, anhedonia.. my biggest fear is the anhedonia. Not knowing what to do with myself all day. That pit in my stomach of just doing nothing and feeling like I need something.
Ugh. Idk. Is 11 days too far in to stop, or is there a chance I won't feel extremely bad withdrawals if I stop right now? Compared to consistent monthly use.. or will it be the same?
Not sure if anyone read this all the way through but like I said, I could really use a friend right now and perhaps some advice. I'm in an extremely low place at the moment. The thoughts are not pleasant. Thank you.